Hmmm.. I wonder what it is with this weird little connection we are getting back.. kinda like the one we used to but different... are we different? am I different? Is it because now I am over him and we can be friends again? I don't know but I'm glad. I missed that boy as a friend... it's been too long..

Now I'm waiting on Jordan to call to tell ( Read more... )

( This is long but worth reading.. pictures too. )

( the other day we had a picnic at lunch. hah. )

I sit here for 45 minutes listening to your problems. then I start to say one thing about something going on in my life and you fucking are like, "I'm getting off of here. cya. <3"

What the hell? I don't think I'm even going to get on the computer anymore. it upsets me too much.

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So I realized today that I'm not wanted but needed. and by that, I don't mean in a good way. I mean that, people only talk to me when they need someone to listen to them or when they need something. people never just call me up to say hey or to talk because they want to talk to me. besides Jordie and cousin. Not if it wouldn't benefit them in ( Read more... )

I never fail to analyze things so much that their beauty is gone and all that is left is the peices I've torn it to. I think to much. I write to much. I care too much. All I want to do is disconnect myself from the world and go somewhere else. but I can't do it because I'm too afraid. Afraid of what? the unknown. I'm not brave and I'm done ( Read more... )

It's 1:25 in the a.m. and I am still awake. It's a Monday night during the school year and I am still awake. I told myself, this year will be different. This year you will sleep. nope. doesn't work that way. telling yourself something doesn't mean shit.

I keep using big words too. What the hell?
Cousin and I had an adventure today... more later. ( Read more... )

haha. A zoo in London put humans on exhibit.

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I'm going to Phils soccer game tomorrow.. his mom is taking me... does anyone else find this a little weird? haha. It'll still be fun though cuz we are friends again and he is playing Dougies soccer team. yay. also, Amy might (better) go.. maybe we can formulate the plans to save the poor emo boys life. ha. ha. ha ( Read more... )