Law School, Abramelin, etc.

[veleda]

On Friday, I made the decision to start my Abramelin working on 3/21 instead 12/21. I was unsure giong into this last phase of portal which one would be appropriate and it just felt like I needed more time. I feel so incredibly busy right now and I will be 'busy' right up to Solstice. I liked the idea of more leisurely prepatory period. Then spirit

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[nancyblue]

But I recognize that if I am serious about my Work, that sacrificing these things seems acceptable.

Been there, done that, got the t-shirt, and you don't want to see the state it's in. I urge you to look at your life and the Work holistically, what do you want your life to look like, and I mean your *whole* life? If you feel that your community and life is here, then commit to staying here. There is no reason that you can't do this. Where I live is such a huge deal to me, I don't compromise on it.

Besides, if you have a good mechanic, you can't leave.

[roadriverrail]

It seems so easy to rationally come to the opinion that moving is OK, however, emotionally I am very resistant. The thought of leaving the life I have created for myself is really stressful and painful for me....I'm really happy where I am. My family is here, my friends are here, my magickal and burner communities are here, etc. My doctor is great, my mechanic is great, etc. I just really don't want to leave. MEH. But I recognize that if I am serious about my Work, that sacrificing these things seems acceptable. I can get there intellectually but I can't emotionally. It's been causing me significant distress and I don't really know what to do about it.

Which is to say that you are here. But that's just one of many "yous" to be, and every now and then, it's good to kill that you and pick up a new one.

"You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame; how could you become new if you haven’t first become ashes" --NietzscheHaving some semblance of stability in life and progression in a career prevents rapid and radical reinvention

[quincidence]

in all seriousness, please don't take this for tongue in cheek...
but if you are not out of the forest yet, be comfortable and have a good relationship with the trees that provide shelter and glowing green warmth.
The forest is sometimes a great place to be when one isn't sitting in their office or living room.
I realize this is a saying which is used to describe "not out of trouble or the foray yet", but truly each moment is perspective as you often state, and if you are in a forest, you command your environment, the forest is an enjoyable place instead of a prison.

[ophelia_complex]

I think I can say something useful here from a lot of personal experience and similar feelings about it. I'll comment later on after work in full :-)

[veleda]

:)

Have you decided yes/no on Barcelona?

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[zarabold]

I cannot tell you what to do....but law school is very demanding and it would be better to have a support group