i'm really cold right now. it just kind of came on all of the sudden. buuuurrrr ( Read more... )

i just wrote a whole entry and for some reason without me touching anything it disappeared. ;lskadhg;hsa;g ( Read more... )

why am i the wrong one?

so i dont know what to say really. he is mad at me, i'm upset.... i have a lot going on. in the end i come out looking like the bad one. apparently i am cold and heartless... but trust me, i'm really not ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to a funeral for one of my dad's relatives. lately i have been feeling weird about that kind of stuff. i was pretty uncomfortable being there. it kind of made me worry. it brought back feelings of the past. it really just made me sad. i dont know how to go into further detail with that. i just miss my dad now and i'm just afraid ( Read more... )

you would think that since i haven't written in here for a while that i would have a lot to say. i really don't. not much is new other than i am trying my hardest to have faith that i will get into grad school somewhere. although i have a plan B.. it will still be slightly discouraging if i actually have to use it ( Read more... )

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i love youuuuuuuuuu

just when i thought i had everything figured out... something happens to just make me completely second guess myself again. i was so angry at him the last couple weeks and now im just not. all i can think about is what if it doesnt work out in the end, then i'll be really upset. i can't handle it. i dont even know what else to write. i almost dont ( Read more... )

so i definitely have to have my 15 page paper done and finalized by the 29th at midnight. this is a problem. plus she is docking me points because an assignment was not redone the right way and i have to do that today. i long for the simple life. the people who get to sit on their asses all day long and not do a damn thing. yet they are still so ( Read more... )