I have not been able to have a peaceful night's sleep so far, or even achieve sleep for that matter without grey's anatomy, alcohol, or tylanol pm. i need a cat or something, any other living body would be nice.

however, i am officially a dance major. and i'm taking 19 units.

I'M IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! (that's sort of an overstatement, but only sort of)

also, just because you guys aren't in school anymore does not mean stop writing entries (clearly this message is not for nicole). so, yeah. i know you all have down time.

If baris actually ends up going out with me i will be elated. well, clearly i already am. excuse me while i jizz myself.

god, i love being here and being home. WHAT a dilemma. i love and miss you guys so much. but it's hard to go back to sharing a bedroom and a house with my family and a job (most likely studio), and needing a car, and leaving my bed and friends (i have the greatest bed, oh my god). but no matter, i'm coming home. and i will see all of them next ( Read more... )

today was completely unproductive and unhealthy. i bought bad ice cream, lost my keys, and feel dirty. i'm going to go to sleep. suck a dick.

DEAR DIARY
APPARENTLY I AM ALWAYS BUMMED OUT. IF I WERE YOU AND HAD TO LISTEN TO ME ALL THE TIME I WOULD KILL MYSELF.

SO now i have virtually no work, which is nice, but feels really wrong. LIke, i'm not doing something i should be. it's uncomfortable. jon hardly speaks to me and i really have to work to get a sentence out. i can't get over him, it's bizarre. he's weird and anti-social but he used to talk to me and like me, fucking say hello to me and now i'm ( Read more... )

i really don't know what to do about this homework situation. it's been a long time since i've dug myself into quite so deep a whole of misery and possible failing of a class. wow. and the worst part is i knew i was completely fucking myself and i did it anyway. am i self-destructive or just lazy or what? even now i can't do it. oh god. what ( Read more... )

i'm sorry liz,i realize i could be online right now but i have to read a book and write an essay in 3 hours. so yeah, that's why i'm not on right now. i will be. eventually.

I feel sick. I haven't cried quite so hard in a long time. like, this was convulsing, ugly, out of control, only when you're alone. I'm a complete mess and i almost could not have fucked things up more, right? yeah, i really don't think so. like, REALLY. and now i'm pulling the same shit i do with every other guy i've ever been interested in ( Read more... )