Drabble: This is not it
Pairing: None, unless you want to read into everything more than nessissary.
Rating: G
Genre: Hurt/comfort, friendship, bromance, bandfic.
Words: 531
Summary: The day of the concert, Himchan feels useless.
Himchan sits on the couch and looks down at his arms.
Angry tears threaten to fall down his face. He grits his teeth, willing the tears away, but to now avail. He can’t help to feel useless and he feel even worse, knowing he is not gonna perform tonight.
He is not gonna dance like the others, he is gonna sit backstage with his arm in a fucking sling and watch them give it all.
The dorm is quiet, the others still in bed, sleeping as long as they can before they have to start to get ready.
He hates the sling his arm is in, he hates the cast around his hand. He wants to punch something, a wall, just anything, but that would probably make it worse, or he could break his other hand and he would be even more useless.
He takes a ragged breath and controls his face, it will look swollen tonight if he continues to cry like this.
Suddenly arms are wrapping around his shoulders, strong arms that ask no questions that he can’t answer, arms that tell him it’s alright. Junhong sits down in front of him and rests his head on Himchan’s knee, he is looking up at him being all worried. Himchan gives him a weak smile, feeling even worse for worrying them.
They should be focusing on the concert, not his childish behavior. The arms let him go and walks around the couch. Daehyun sits down beside him and leans his head against Himchan’s shoulder. “Don’t worry hyung.” He says quietly.
Himchan nods, to afraid to speak in fear of crying again.
He takes another breath and pats Junhong’s head and then Daehyun’s with his healthy hand.
“You are such good dongsaengs.” He says, meaning it in every way.
“We love you hyung.” Junhong says, almost shyly “It’s not the same without you, BAP is not the same without you.”
“Thank you.” Himchan whispers, on the verge of crying once again, but not from anger anymore. They sit like that for another minute “You need to get going.” Himchan says. They have more stuff to prepare than he does, they need more time to do get it done. Both of them sigh but gets up, heading towards the kitchen for breakfast, Himchan follows them.
Himchan thinks he has never gotten so many hugs and pats on the shoulder from his members as he gets during the rest of the day. Jongup is almost clingy and Yongguk has to tell him to get off Himchan and get his hair done.
Just before they hit the stage, Yongguk gathers them around and does a pep-talk, Himchan listens well even though he is not going out there with them. When Youngjae looks back at him just before going out on stage Himchan does a cute “Fighting!” and watch as a silly smile breaks the younger’s face.
Then, standing there, looking out over the green light sticks in the form of bunnies, with his best friend next to him, Himchan is sad but at the same time so incredibly happy. He knows there will be more concerts, more stages, more comebacks. This is not it.