i'm in aftershock. i'm not totally shocked, but i'm still consumed by the weirdness and the whole erasing of the "it could never happen to me" mentality. no good, that mentality. also- putting your hopes in other people often turns out to be incredibly disappointing, so heads up.

okay, since xanga's the coolest and all, i'll write here ( Read more... )

it's weird to sit here now and think that i actually did ride in a freaking ambulance yesterday morning, but i did, and my friends rule. tori, erin, ben, you guys are the best.

i hate stupid live journal, but xanga must wait. and so must i ( Read more... )

but i don't like it ( Read more... )

i wonder if i missed out...?

what if i misinterpreted things? could things actually be going my way if i hadn't been so stubbornly hesitant?

i should be willing to trust God with this (among everything else) but uh... i'm having trouble.

xanga kicked me out. harsh ( Read more... )