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[vendered]

I finally had a mental breakdown the other day.

And yeah, I might be a neat freak, and I might have OCD, but when its your life thats a mess and is totally unorganized, you're going to have a bigger problem than a messy room.

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[aqua_net]

I had one the other week, I just didn't tell anyone. It honestly came from being too nice to people. But aside from the shit fit that I threw (when no one was around, thankfully) it felt really really good to be nice to people, and to help people. I'm not going to stop. I just need to relax, too, because a lot of people do not notice and/or appreciate the things that I do, or I might do, and I can't hold that against them.
And if it's your life that you think is totally unorganized, stop and first think, "What is wrong with it?" then take it from there. Because
sometimes, there's nothing you can do to help except go with the flow, and take it from someone who knows: going with the flow ain't that bad. Except sometimes, the flow stops, and you need to do something. It's a lot more relaxing then always doing something though. You just have to anticipate these stops. But there usually is something that can be done that's better than going with the flow (I just don't do that), and you can do that, too.
I don't know how much sense it

[vendered]

Thats good advice...
...but I don't have it in me to just not care. I don't have it in me to always say "eh, since I don't have any time, I should spend it doing what I want and not doing homework." Thats a responsibility I have to my parents, to school, and to myself. I can't sit back and say "Yep, today I didn't accomplish anything." I understand what you're saying by going with the flow, but when I've got work 4 times a week, babysitting, insane amounts of homework, and at least a little time to be social and keep my sanity, it doesn't work that easy. If my room is a mess, in example the things that I really need to get to/find fast since I don't have all day to look through stuff is piled under stuff, well that just isn't efficient. I feel better about doing something at least kind of productive than just sitting around aimlessly.

[aqua_net]

There's a difference between not caring and not doing anything. I should know.