Theres too many things that i have to say to so many people, but im afraid to say them. im afraid of my feelings. Im so messed up. I dream about a woman who doesnt exist anymore. and since then i don't even feel like I exist either. Why is it that everyone in my life has to compete with a ghost? there's parts of me who want to be damned with the ( Read more... )

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you can love someone, but that doesnt mean it will work out.

i will always love her. i will always love Sara and Cass. but life changes.

im sorry i had to do this ashley. goodbye.

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its the new tool song for downlaod. get it! its soooooo good.

I didnt think it could happen again, but then again i could just be fooling myself. I think i love her, but there is just to many things in the way so im not sure if this is real or if im justbeing dilusional. It dosent feel like the love i knewa long time ago. Its a different kind, maybe a more reserved kind of love. I know the timing is bad again ( Read more... )

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sometimes the Christians are just way over the top. But this is funny, but i feel sorry for the kids.

alright,

as of yesterday Im half way to 50, thats right the big 25. i guess i should go get my car insurance now. lol

"We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another"- Dean swift.

monday night, now tuesday morning. Its been a good three day weekend, but now i cant really sleep. so its almost 2am. Sometimes i wonder about shit. Im happy with my life, and the future looks really good. Its bitter sweet, cause if im going the germany, then Ashley is going to have to go. This seemes to be the story with me and the women in my ( Read more... )

hey all, it look like im going to be going to Europe after all, im going to school in germany. and its gonna rule. i'll be there next school year this september. Im elated with joy, i can't wait to see europe.