Because I wanted to give it, because I have the ability to give it, I know that I am OK ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here looking at this pile of books that's simply calling for me to attack it, to get to it, but I know, I know that I won't be able to do that until I at least do a little bit of my own personal housecleaning first.  I guess that's all I have time to use this for lately.  I know that I won't be able to do my work if I don't have a ( Read more... )

You?  I blew it with you.

It's the self confidence.  It's severely lacking in me.  So I let myself slip by...

When maybe, if I just loosened the leash a little, you'd see how beautiful I can be.

I'm getting ready to go out, so I guess I feel like I should just get rid of all this bad energy before I try to socialize ( Read more... )

What is it about some people?  They have that dangerous appeal, and there you are with a hook to your gill like some poor fish in the river being reeled in and in and there's nothing to do that'll dislodge it.  Someone strikes you in some way, and that's it.  That's the end - and the beginning of this intensity, this want want want in a reckless ( Read more... )

"Baby, baby, baby..."  Don't "baby" me.  This is what you repeat to me as you rub my back and try to calm my hardly sober storm of tears.  I was hurting because of them, probably a lot of other things, and the alcohol is coursing through me.  My boyfriend is nowhere to be found (actually, he is outside throwing up obscene amounts of liquor from his ( Read more... )

I'm on my knees; only memories are left for me to hold.  Don't know how, but I'll get by; slowly pull myself together.  I'll get through.  There's no escape, so keep me safe.  This feels so unreal.  Nothing comes easily.  Fill this empty space.  Nothing is like it seems.  Turn my grief to grace.  I feel the cold, loneliness unfold like from another ( Read more... )

I'm on the cross - nothing to hide when all is lost
i'm on the cross - a truth or a lie
which could be worse?

when i speak, white noise
pours out from my voice
every time i move my lips
it tears your little ears to bits
i'm frozen all the time
deer in headlights
i'll get to the point
can't depend on love or truth
to get you through

do you want me to explain?
( Read more... )

As I look at what I've done
The type of life that I've lived
How many things I pray the father will forgive
One situation involved a young man
He was the ocean and I was the sand
He stole my heart like a thief in the night
Dulled my senses blurred my sight

I used to love him but now I don't
I used to love him but now I don't

I chose a road of ( Read more... )

oh, sweet lungs, don't fail me now.  Your burning has turned into fear.  Drills me in my every step; I'm moving quick, but you're always at my heels.  Just one more breath, I beg you please, just one more step, you are not weak.  My heart is sturdy but it needs you to survive.  Breathe, don't you want to breathe?  I know that you are strong enough ( Read more... )