My First Love [10/10]
Author: Veridanya (暗 and 軽 collaborating)
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: SakurAiba, Ohmiya (hinted), SakuMoto (one-sided)
Disclaimer: we don't own them (We wish tho... T_T)
Summary: Can you forget the person you loved the most once? Can you forget the person whose existence marked you? Could you forget your first love?
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“Aiba?”
So, that was it? It was this simple?
He saw the confused look on the other’s face.
“Can… can I come in?”
“Su-sure, come in”
He moved to let him in, and Aiba could feel his gaze on him.
“Aiba, is something wrong? Are you ok?”
“Just listen to me, ok? This time, let me talk…”
As soon as Aiba heard the door closing he turned to the other guy, not even allowing them to reach the living room and started to talk.
"You know? For 10 years I've tried to hate you, to forget you. You are the guy that ruined my life. I left school, I left my friends, I moved away... I just couldn't get myself to see you again. I loved you with all my heart, and when I felt you just played with me, I just couldn't stand it. I wanted to die, couldn't get myself to go to school... And I swear myself not to love again, not to open myself to that again."
Aiba stopped to take a long breath to organize his words.
"During 10 years, all I've done was trying to forget you, trying to erase you from my mind... but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't."
Aiba's tears were threatening to scape, but he just blinked them away. He needed to control himself, he needed to let this out.
"I kept dreaming about you, anything would remind me to you. At some point your face started to get blurry in my memories, but your presence was always there..."
"Aiba..."
"No, let me continue."
Sho just nodded and that was sign enough for Aiba to continue.
"I started to fool myself thinking I could get over you. After all that time... I changed works, and got a better one, but then you were there and... and I couldn't believe it. It was overwhelming, I had been running from you for that long and suddenly you were everywhere, telling me that you'll make me love you and... and I couldn't stop myself for remembering what happened, from thinking that you just wanted to play with me again. And some part of it still thinks that because, I mean, how could be possible? That you could really love me? Now or back then, it's just impossible. But Sho-chan... I can't do it anymore"
Aiba's tears finally started to flow freely down his cheeks, and he didn't bother to wipe them away.
"Wha-- what do you mean? If you want me to leave, to leave you alone, I will. I don't... I don't want you to suffer anymore Masaki"
That's what it, the way his name sounded in Sho's lips like it didn't in anybody else’s. The way he was looking at him, like he was the most precious thing on earth... he wanted that. He wanted to hear his name said by those lips over and over again. He wanted to be his most precious thing, he... wanted him.
Aiba couldn't bring himself to say anything, and the short silence was broken by Sho.
"So it's that so? Well, I'll leave; guess I've been selfish about that and... I'm sorry, I'll leave. You won't have to worry"
"No."
"No?"
"That's not what I want. I want you to love me, to make me feel is real, I want you to call my name, to annoy me with your comments. I'm tired of not being with you..."
He just realized, after all this time fighting against himself, he was being honest. For once, he was gonna fight for what he wanted. All this years he thought he was the only one suffering, and knowing he had suffered too was hurting more than his feelings, than his fear. What Jun had told him, the sadness of Sho's eyes when he rejected him... all of that was hurting him more than anything else. He just wanted to be with him, to share his life with him and see him smiling because of him.
"Do you still love me?"
"I--"
"If not, give me a chance. Give me a chance to make you love me, please"
Aiba looked up to Sho's eyes, pleading, crying.
"No, it's me the one that should be asking that, the one that should be asking for a second chance. Sho-chan, after all I've done to you, do you still love me? Will you gave me a second chance?"
Sho wiped Aiba's tears chuckling.
"I would love to"
Aiba moved closer to the older man and hugged him, letting his tears wet the other's shoulder. But this time it was different, after all this years, he was crying out of happiness. A happiness he hadn't felt in 10 years...
Aiba felt Sho's hand patting his head softly. He still couldn't believe that after all the things he had done to him; he was treating him like that. He looked up, meeting Sho’s gaze and could see him smiling gently at him, without thinking it twice he kissed him, with intensity, eagerly like trying to reassure that this was happening for real
Sho traped his arms around Aiba’s waist and broke the kiss gently
“It’s ok Masaki, I’m here” said reassuring the taller man he was not going anywhere, he caressed Aiba’s cheek tracing his features softly with the tip of his finger.
“I’ve waited so long for this” he kissed the tip of Aiba’s nose making him blush, then kissed his forehead, his cheeks, his lips softly “I love you” he whispered on Aiba’s ear while caressing his hair.
Sho chuckled at the sight of Aiba being adorably shy and Aiba could feel his heart flooded with joy of listen the sound of the other man laugh
They stayed hugging and sharing tender kisses for a while sitting in the couch, it was true it wasn’t the first time they had intimacy but the previous time both of them were drunk enough to forget about their inhibitions and this time was different, this time both were conscious and feelings were present, both of them were nervous to make the first move but wanting it so bad.
Sho took the initiative, making Aiba lay down on the couch while he kissed his lips softly at first, and then started going down to his neck giving it butterfly kisses and making the taller boy shiver.
“Sho-chan…” Aiba muttered while the older man was caressing the side of his body softly while kept kissing his neck.
“Mhm?” was all the Sho replied
“I-I want you to make love to me” he said blushing and feeling his cheeks hot.
Sho stopped what he was doing and turned to look at him, smiling softly
“There’s nothing I want more than that”
Aiba smiled and sat down getting rid of his own shirt while Sho did the same and stood up, stretching his hand to Aiba, who looked at him confused but hold his hand and stood up too following Sho to his bedroom.
Once there, Sho turned to Aiba and started to kiss him gently and then adding more passion to the kiss, he licked his lips looking for an entry, Aiba parted his lips letting him enter, their tongues dancing together in a sensual dance inside his mouths causing soft moans from both men.
In matter of seconds, they were lying in bed Sho on top of Aiba giving butterfly kiss to his chest, putting special emphasize on his collarbones and his birthmark on his arm
“You’re beautiful” he whispered making Aiba blush even more
“I’m not” the younger man replied softly
“You’re perfect”
Aiba could feel a tear rolling his cheek, he never expect to feel this loved, this happy. After that he let himself lose in Sho’s tender touches, and his sweet kisses, he loved how Sho’s skin felt against his, how perfect Sho was, the glowing smile, the warm on his eyes, the husky tone of voice that make him vibrate while he said pretty things that sending him to the moon.
He shivered and let a loud moan escape when before he realized Sho had already unbuckled his pants and pulled them off along with his boxers, setting his member free. The contact of Sho’s cherry lips against his hot skin was indescribable, he could feel Sho’s lips going everywhere around his crotch making him groan and scream and moan with the sensations he was experimenting, it felt like that time 10 years ago, when Sho and him had intimacy for the first time, except this time he was letting himself enjoy plenty without the nervous of a first time, or the buzz of the alcohol like the last time, this time every atom of him was asking for Sho’s touches.
“Sho…want you, now” he said panting drunk with pleasure.
He wanted to prolong that moment as long as they could, this whole experience was awesome, this wasn’t just pure placer or just sex, he was with the love of his life, enjoying without inhibitions. Sho started to prepare him moving his hands to Aiba’s entrance and started to play with his fingers while his mouth was busy with his member, after a few minutes and once Aiba was ready, he moved and got in, softly until Aiba told him he was ok, and he could start to move, didn’t take long til both of them reached the orgasm almost at the same time, after that a panting Sho lied on bed next to Aiba pulling him close and hugging him.
“I love you, all you, your sunshine smile, your dreamy eyes, your innocent giggle, your soft lips, your soft skin, every part of you Masaki, and above all I love your beautiful heart” Sho whisper while laying his head on Aiba’s shoulder “You’re perfect and beautiful”
Aiba ran his fingers through Sho’s back
“Sho…”
“What is it?”
Aiba felt Sho’s arms hugging him tighter, and he nuzzled in Sho’s neck before continuing.
“I… I love you”
Both stayed like that, hugging each other, bathed by the moonlight that started to enter across Sho’s bedroom window. Aiba stared to the sleepy figure of Sho, laying beside him.
Now he had found his answers. You can’t forget the person you loved the most, when you’ve loved somebody with your whole heart and soul, you can’t forget. No matter how hard you try, you can’t forget the existence of the person that marked your life… you can’t forget your first love. And now, he won’t ever try to do it again.
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暗 A/N: It's finally here, the last chapter! It's kinda sad somehow >.< Hope it won't disappoint any of you. We had so much fun writing it. Actually, there is still a little thing left of it, so stay tunned for the cause of my confidence crisis little surprise! Thanks to all of you that have read and commented over the series <3
軽 A/N: Hello!!! Finally is here!!! *bounce around* Hope all of you had enjoyed this series. I know we had fun writing it. Thank you so much to everyone who read it and leave us love in the comments. Stay tuned for out coming stories!!
Genre: Romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: SakurAiba, Ohmiya (hinted), SakuMoto (one-sided)
Disclaimer: we don't own them (We wish tho... T_T)
Summary: Can you forget the person you loved the most once? Can you forget the person whose existence marked you? Could you forget your first love?
_________
“Aiba?”
So, that was it? It was this simple?
He saw the confused look on the other’s face.
“Can… can I come in?”
“Su-sure, come in”
He moved to let him in, and Aiba could feel his gaze on him.
“Aiba, is something wrong? Are you ok?”
“Just listen to me, ok? This time, let me talk…”
As soon as Aiba heard the door closing he turned to the other guy, not even allowing them to reach the living room and started to talk.
"You know? For 10 years I've tried to hate you, to forget you. You are the guy that ruined my life. I left school, I left my friends, I moved away... I just couldn't get myself to see you again. I loved you with all my heart, and when I felt you just played with me, I just couldn't stand it. I wanted to die, couldn't get myself to go to school... And I swear myself not to love again, not to open myself to that again."
Aiba stopped to take a long breath to organize his words.
"During 10 years, all I've done was trying to forget you, trying to erase you from my mind... but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't."
Aiba's tears were threatening to scape, but he just blinked them away. He needed to control himself, he needed to let this out.
"I kept dreaming about you, anything would remind me to you. At some point your face started to get blurry in my memories, but your presence was always there..."
"Aiba..."
"No, let me continue."
Sho just nodded and that was sign enough for Aiba to continue.
"I started to fool myself thinking I could get over you. After all that time... I changed works, and got a better one, but then you were there and... and I couldn't believe it. It was overwhelming, I had been running from you for that long and suddenly you were everywhere, telling me that you'll make me love you and... and I couldn't stop myself for remembering what happened, from thinking that you just wanted to play with me again. And some part of it still thinks that because, I mean, how could be possible? That you could really love me? Now or back then, it's just impossible. But Sho-chan... I can't do it anymore"
Aiba's tears finally started to flow freely down his cheeks, and he didn't bother to wipe them away.
"Wha-- what do you mean? If you want me to leave, to leave you alone, I will. I don't... I don't want you to suffer anymore Masaki"
That's what it, the way his name sounded in Sho's lips like it didn't in anybody else’s. The way he was looking at him, like he was the most precious thing on earth... he wanted that. He wanted to hear his name said by those lips over and over again. He wanted to be his most precious thing, he... wanted him.
Aiba couldn't bring himself to say anything, and the short silence was broken by Sho.
"So it's that so? Well, I'll leave; guess I've been selfish about that and... I'm sorry, I'll leave. You won't have to worry"
"No."
"No?"
"That's not what I want. I want you to love me, to make me feel is real, I want you to call my name, to annoy me with your comments. I'm tired of not being with you..."
He just realized, after all this time fighting against himself, he was being honest. For once, he was gonna fight for what he wanted. All this years he thought he was the only one suffering, and knowing he had suffered too was hurting more than his feelings, than his fear. What Jun had told him, the sadness of Sho's eyes when he rejected him... all of that was hurting him more than anything else. He just wanted to be with him, to share his life with him and see him smiling because of him.
"Do you still love me?"
"I--"
"If not, give me a chance. Give me a chance to make you love me, please"
Aiba looked up to Sho's eyes, pleading, crying.
"No, it's me the one that should be asking that, the one that should be asking for a second chance. Sho-chan, after all I've done to you, do you still love me? Will you gave me a second chance?"
Sho wiped Aiba's tears chuckling.
"I would love to"
Aiba moved closer to the older man and hugged him, letting his tears wet the other's shoulder. But this time it was different, after all this years, he was crying out of happiness. A happiness he hadn't felt in 10 years...
Aiba felt Sho's hand patting his head softly. He still couldn't believe that after all the things he had done to him; he was treating him like that. He looked up, meeting Sho’s gaze and could see him smiling gently at him, without thinking it twice he kissed him, with intensity, eagerly like trying to reassure that this was happening for real
Sho traped his arms around Aiba’s waist and broke the kiss gently
“It’s ok Masaki, I’m here” said reassuring the taller man he was not going anywhere, he caressed Aiba’s cheek tracing his features softly with the tip of his finger.
“I’ve waited so long for this” he kissed the tip of Aiba’s nose making him blush, then kissed his forehead, his cheeks, his lips softly “I love you” he whispered on Aiba’s ear while caressing his hair.
Sho chuckled at the sight of Aiba being adorably shy and Aiba could feel his heart flooded with joy of listen the sound of the other man laugh
They stayed hugging and sharing tender kisses for a while sitting in the couch, it was true it wasn’t the first time they had intimacy but the previous time both of them were drunk enough to forget about their inhibitions and this time was different, this time both were conscious and feelings were present, both of them were nervous to make the first move but wanting it so bad.
Sho took the initiative, making Aiba lay down on the couch while he kissed his lips softly at first, and then started going down to his neck giving it butterfly kisses and making the taller boy shiver.
“Sho-chan…” Aiba muttered while the older man was caressing the side of his body softly while kept kissing his neck.
“Mhm?” was all the Sho replied
“I-I want you to make love to me” he said blushing and feeling his cheeks hot.
Sho stopped what he was doing and turned to look at him, smiling softly
“There’s nothing I want more than that”
Aiba smiled and sat down getting rid of his own shirt while Sho did the same and stood up, stretching his hand to Aiba, who looked at him confused but hold his hand and stood up too following Sho to his bedroom.
Once there, Sho turned to Aiba and started to kiss him gently and then adding more passion to the kiss, he licked his lips looking for an entry, Aiba parted his lips letting him enter, their tongues dancing together in a sensual dance inside his mouths causing soft moans from both men.
In matter of seconds, they were lying in bed Sho on top of Aiba giving butterfly kiss to his chest, putting special emphasize on his collarbones and his birthmark on his arm
“You’re beautiful” he whispered making Aiba blush even more
“I’m not” the younger man replied softly
“You’re perfect”
Aiba could feel a tear rolling his cheek, he never expect to feel this loved, this happy. After that he let himself lose in Sho’s tender touches, and his sweet kisses, he loved how Sho’s skin felt against his, how perfect Sho was, the glowing smile, the warm on his eyes, the husky tone of voice that make him vibrate while he said pretty things that sending him to the moon.
He shivered and let a loud moan escape when before he realized Sho had already unbuckled his pants and pulled them off along with his boxers, setting his member free. The contact of Sho’s cherry lips against his hot skin was indescribable, he could feel Sho’s lips going everywhere around his crotch making him groan and scream and moan with the sensations he was experimenting, it felt like that time 10 years ago, when Sho and him had intimacy for the first time, except this time he was letting himself enjoy plenty without the nervous of a first time, or the buzz of the alcohol like the last time, this time every atom of him was asking for Sho’s touches.
“Sho…want you, now” he said panting drunk with pleasure.
He wanted to prolong that moment as long as they could, this whole experience was awesome, this wasn’t just pure placer or just sex, he was with the love of his life, enjoying without inhibitions. Sho started to prepare him moving his hands to Aiba’s entrance and started to play with his fingers while his mouth was busy with his member, after a few minutes and once Aiba was ready, he moved and got in, softly until Aiba told him he was ok, and he could start to move, didn’t take long til both of them reached the orgasm almost at the same time, after that a panting Sho lied on bed next to Aiba pulling him close and hugging him.
“I love you, all you, your sunshine smile, your dreamy eyes, your innocent giggle, your soft lips, your soft skin, every part of you Masaki, and above all I love your beautiful heart” Sho whisper while laying his head on Aiba’s shoulder “You’re perfect and beautiful”
Aiba ran his fingers through Sho’s back
“Sho…”
“What is it?”
Aiba felt Sho’s arms hugging him tighter, and he nuzzled in Sho’s neck before continuing.
“I… I love you”
Both stayed like that, hugging each other, bathed by the moonlight that started to enter across Sho’s bedroom window. Aiba stared to the sleepy figure of Sho, laying beside him.
Now he had found his answers. You can’t forget the person you loved the most, when you’ve loved somebody with your whole heart and soul, you can’t forget. No matter how hard you try, you can’t forget the existence of the person that marked your life… you can’t forget your first love. And now, he won’t ever try to do it again.
________
暗 A/N: It's finally here, the last chapter! It's kinda sad somehow >.< Hope it won't disappoint any of you. We had so much fun writing it. Actually, there is still a little thing left of it, so stay tunned for the cause of my confidence crisis little surprise! Thanks to all of you that have read and commented over the series <3
軽 A/N: Hello!!! Finally is here!!! *bounce around* Hope all of you had enjoyed this series. I know we had fun writing it. Thank you so much to everyone who read it and leave us love in the comments. Stay tuned for out coming stories!!