Mr. Nothing [2/11]
Author: 暗
Beta: 軽
Length: Multi-chapter
Genre: Drama, angst, AU
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: ShoxMr. Nothing ; OhMiya [hinted]
Disclaimer: we don't own them as much as we wish for it, they are people and slavery is illegal and all of that.
Summary: He never questioned him what was he doing with his life anymore. He had lost himself a long ago. Misused, misunderstood. He didn’t know what he had done with himself nor wanted to know. Fuck, being fucked, boys, girls… it didn’t matter to him. This was his life; this had been his life for a long time. A life directed to self-destruction since the moment he lost himself. Self-injury, alcohol, sex with strangers, self-hate… he didn’t care anymore, he was empty, he was Mr. Nothing. But for Sakurai Sho, he would become Mr. Everything.
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As Sho got out of the toilet, he couldn’t see a trace of the other guy. “Mr.Nothing”, huh? There was something about that guy that was intriguing Sho, and he was definitely looking forward to come across him again. He thought about asking Jun, who probably knew every usual night person around the city. But there was a little problem, how was he supposed to ask when he didn’t know the other’s name. “Hey, Jun, I just fucked this random guy whose name I don’t know and I just happen to want to fuck him again, what can you tell me about him?” That was improbable even for Jun, so he just let it pass and went to keep drinking without caring about anything more, after all, he had already got a great fuck.
The next morning he opened his eyes to a series of shouts from his father, as it has became usual, about how he should stop being such a useless son and begin to do something properly instead of “being a drunkard that didn’t thought about anything but partying and fucking”. It hurt… not the words, he was already used to listen to that and he knew he had done his part to deserve that, but the high voice his father was using was drilling his hurting head. It was enough; he just wanted to sleep, was that too hard to understand?
“You should record yourself and send me the tape instead of bothering to come here every fucking morning and wake me up with your fucking screams!”
Sho felt the slap his father gave him in his face, but that didn’t make him lose his cool. He just stared at his father with emotionless eyes before talking to him again.
“Well, now that I guess you feel calmer, can you get the fuck out of my room if it’s not too much?”
His father stared at him with anger in his eyes but still decided to leave the room. Not without some final words.
“I wonder when you started to get this rotted…”
Sho just snorted, well, it was basically his parents and his awesome hypocrisy the basic reason for this, or at least it was at the beginning. Now it was just that he had gotten too attached to this way of life and he was enjoying every part of it… well, early morning shouts were an obvious exception.
It was still Saturday; his parents’ favorite day to throw everything that came into his mind about his behavior directly to him in the form of shouts. Obviously, one of the worst days for Sho, but that was just about the day time, Saturdays nights were still one of Sho’s favorite parts of the week. He called Jun for confirmation about where they’d be going that night and started to get ready. Even when after arriving to the place they’d split, they still kept an eye on the rest, ready to help in case it was necessary, it was part of their silent pact. After all, Jun and Nino had been his friends since elementary school, and Ohno joined them easily as soon as he and Nino got together. Though even now, he still wondered why Nino and Ohno insisted to go out with them, after all, they could just stay at home doing the same thing, making out. Sho would think they had some kind of fetish of doing it in public places if he wouldn’t know that they insisted to come with them to check they wouldn’t over do it.
After not insisting too much, he got Jun to accept going to the same place as the previous night. Sho wouldn’t admit it, but he was hoping to come across that guy again. So he got on his tight jeans and a simple t-shirt and left home without even sparing a look to his parents and picked a taxi to Jun’s home that was already waiting for him and got in as soon as he parked. It was another of their deals, considering what they aimed for when going out at night, none of them went by car to the places.
The place looked exactly the same as the previous night, and Sho found himself wondering again what was so attracting about this place. Well, he knew exactly what was attracting him for the place, but he doubted everybody went there for that same reason.
As they came in, Sho did exactly the same; he went to the bar and ordered his drink before starting to scan the place looking for him. He was starting to think he wouldn’t find him; after all, maybe that guy just happened to come there by chance and wasn’t planning to come back. That was something that Sho hadn’t thought about, he had hoped the guy was a regular there, but in the case he wasn’t, he may not see him again. Sho was starting to wonder why was he getting so obsessed with the guy when he suddenly saw him crossing the dance floor towards the back door with a big guy, but before he could react and follow them or do something, both of them had disappeared and Sho found himself face to face to Jun.
“Leave it, Sho”
“I don’t know what are you talking about…”
He knew perfectly his friend wasn’t going to buy it, so he decided to take a more direct path and to ask him directly about the mysterious guy.
“You know something about him?”
“The lanky one? Why?”
Sho had no other option but to tell the reason, anyway, he knew Jun would never say a thing or judging him; after all, they were the same.
“I fucked with him last night”
Sho could see Jun chuckling before replying.
“I see. Well, I don’t know his name… but I know about him, heard many things about the guy and have come across him some times.”
Sho listened eagerly about the stories, for what it seemed, nobody really know much about the guy, he would just come to the clubs, get drunk, get drugs, hook up with boys or girls… but for what Jun said, he hadn’t heard his name from anybody, and from last night experience, Sho was doubting he’d ever tell anybody his name.
Sho wanted to know more, who was the guy and why did he act like that? He surprised himself with his thought, was he gonna care know about why people acted the way they did? Oh, he was so not gonna do that, he had more than enough with himself. Still, it was a pain that he wouldn’t be able to do that guy again.
It was then when he saw the guy crossing in front of him again, with his eyes totally unfocussed. Sho grabbed him by his arm but as soon as he asked him if he was ok, the other snapped his hand and threw him a hateful stare before getting close to him and telling him in a hard voice.
“Get lost, I don’t need anyone”
Sho stayed there, watching as the guy disappeared before turning away angry and get another drink, ready to keep scanning and decided to fuck whoever’s brain out.
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A/N: So, next part posted <3 I enjoyed reading your guessings and... the mistery isn't over yet! Sorry, it's just Sho's pov so if he knows nothing... XD But don't hate me nor get frustrated! Anyway, hints keep appearing, right? I wonder if it's not obvious... Well, his name will come out sooner or later after all! Hope you're enjoying it!