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[veridiandusk]

I've been thinking it's interesting that what I listed as wanting this year that I did not have last year actually are incredibly apt for exactly what I am feeling now.

Resolution. Advancement. Passion. Spirituality. Adventure.I wanted resolution on a number of things, namely my two major health problems and the progress and path of music school

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[prinzessin]

I hope you make good progress on all of these...
you've already made the first step, which is realising what you want!

"I need to feel passion [...] For my life. I feel like I've been going through everything without being awake. I have these brief moments of suddenly being very present in my body and in the moment and in Angela. But most of the time I am not."
yes yes YES! I feel the same way so often... like "where has my day/week/month gone? where WAS I? what have I been doing?" I want to be in-the-moment always. it's hard, but possible.

[veridiandusk]

Yes, it's so frustrating to realize it's been 3 weeks since I've been present and aware in a moment. It's also scary when it's such a length of time, not just a day or week, but suddenly it's months later and... what did I really do that mattered?

On Wednesday I sat outside at UBC studying for 45 minutes, and suddenly realized how amazing the sun felt. I realized I haven't just gone out to walk or sit in the sun at all this year just for the sake of enjoying the day.