Over-tiredness has kicked in.  I could call my one friend who's on the graveyard shift right now, but he's already told me he's really busy at work tonight.  Sigh.  I tried watching some old videos from when I was a kid.  You know, old episodes of Fraggle Rock, Smurfs and Beanie & Cecil.  Mmmm, didn't work too well.  I'm so exhausted that when I ( Read more... )

Insomnia sucks. It really does. And I’m ready to strangle that damn cricket. I don’t know where it is. It must be in the wall or something. I have hunted it down from the family room to the hallway to the bathroom and back. I can’t find the thing! Ahhhhh! Ya know, I generally like cricket sounds at night, but when I’m outside! Not inside my house!  ( Read more... )

So once again I find out I'm back to being considered part of that same leper community again.  I'll tell ya, it's a reall lousy place to be.  And of course, no one has any clue what I'm referring to.  It's only a figment of my imagination.  Right.  It works both ways, but that's ok.  It's not like it matters anymore.  I just don't care.  I know I ( Read more... )

what originally showed up as a 7mm mass, turns out to be several clusters of masses.  don't know the total size/amount, they're not saying.  all they've told us is he needs to have yet another scan over a larger area on wednesday.  there is no option other than surgery.  now it's just a question of what kind and how much.  great.  just fuckin great ( Read more... )

so my day went from long and busy to a dead halt.  suddenly my problems at work seem pretty trivial.  the dr thinks she knows why dad's been having trouble breathing & chest pains lately.  turns out there's a mass of sorts on one of his lungs.  they don't actually know what it is yet.  he goes for another scan tomorrow, which will determine if he ( Read more... )

Well at least one great mystery has been solved. The good news is, I finally understand why all of my “friends” have vanished or simply not returned any phone calls in the last few months or year. And you know what? That’s fine. At least one had the decency to tell me why. Of course, even then, it took an argument and one hell of a heart-wrenching ( Read more... )

I am so incredibly sore. I worked my ass off today in the yard. I started off mowing & ended with chopping down a tree. Dogwoods are surprisingly heavy for being the size they are. My parents insisted that one of the dogwoods in the yard was dead. It was not. I tried to point this out, but it didn’t do any good. Chopping down a dead tree is one ( Read more... )

I have solved the ever-so-important question of how to lose weight quickly!  I just lost .5 lbs in 15 minutes!  No joke, I actually weighed myself before I started.  And how did I perform this miracle?  By chopping off 12 inches of my hair.  It's pretty short now - just above my chin.  A little shorter than I was expecting, but it looks much more ( Read more... )

“You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.”
Barbara Hall, A Summons to New Orleans, 2000
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“To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.”
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Nicknames. They can tell a lot about a person when you think about it. Everyone has a few (or lots!) that various people have given them.  Just to name a few that others have given me….

Giggles
Silly Bean
Peaches
Sylvester
Southern Belle
Yankee
Dear Warrior
Gypsy Rose

Interesting how some seem to contradict each other... Interesting stories ( Read more... )