I had the best dream last night!  Sigh.  I think today's going to be a good day...  :-)

Can a lepord really change its' spots????

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Ten Thousand Angels
~Mindy McCready~

Speaking of the devil
Look who just walked in
He knows just where to find me
Here we go again
I can tell he's gonna ask me to dance
But that's not as far as he wants to go
I need ten thousand angels to help me tell him no

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This can't be happening.  I can't go down that road again.  I feel like the wind's been knocked out of me.  I don't know what to say.  What do I do?  I know what I need to say/do, but suddenly I'm my old self again.  No no no no!  I have to get away!  I cannot be pulled back into that again....

What's this?  A decision?  Hmmm.  Maybe things can be mended yet.  Well, whatever the outcome, the important thing is that repairs are made.  Whether or not we end up as a couple again, that has yet to be determined.  But as long as he's still a part of my life, as a friend or otherwise, that's the important part.

Today basically sucked.  I've been feeling ill and depressed all day.  I think I ate too many sweets this weekend.  I never eat them anymore, so it was kind of a system shock probably.  I've just felt like crying all day.  I really hope I get a job soon.  I need more than anything to get out of here.

My parents came home about an hour ago and ( Read more... )

So, the strange thing is, I've had a massive migrane for the last two days. I've somehow managed to make it through work. I've had my phone on silent and haven't picked up on the house line. I came home from work today, ate some food for the first time in a day or two, took some more meds and fell asleep. It is now 3:30am and I just woke up. ( Read more... )

Wow. I haven't had one of those in a long time. The Girl Scout national convention is this weekend and I'm supposed to help out for a couple hours. Great, sounds like fun. So why the panic attack? I've never had one related to GS before. School, yes. Guys, yes. Going out in public, yes. Public speaking, yes. Girl Scouts? Never. It was ( Read more... )

Just when you think you can't get any lower, you realize you were only on a cliff ledge. And you look above you and see a huge rockslide headed your way. You have two choices, jump off the ledge and go splat or stand there and get crushed.

Song quote of the day:

"There is no Arizona
No painted desert,no Sedona"
--Jamie O'Neal, "There Is No

It's been a very long weekend. And, although it's great spending time wtih my best friend, the bubble's getting very cramped ( Read more... )

Ok, I am no completely freaked out. Yes, I'm facinated by all sorts of "unusual" things. Do I necesarily like it when they happen unbidden? NO. It is now after 4 in the morning and I'm still too freaked out to sleep. I tried calling Colin, but there was no answer. I talked to AJ for a while, but I felt guilty keeping him on the phone too late ( Read more... )