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You walk on like a woman in suffering
Won't even bother now to tell me why
You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment
Leaving me broken another time
You come on like a bloodstained hurricane
Leave me alone, let me be this time
You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption
I don't want to mention, the reason I know
That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run
You don't know what your power has done to me
I want to know if I'll heal inside
I can't go on with a holocaust about to happen
Seeing you laughing another time
You'll never know how your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses
Leaving me breathless, the reason I know
That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run
Into the abyss will I run
You walk on like a woman in suffering
Won't even bother now to tell me why
You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment
Leaving me broken another time
You come on like a bloodstained hurricane
Leave me alone, let me be this time
You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption
I don't want to mention, the reason I know
That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run
Into the abyss will I run
I can't let you go
Yes I am stricken and can't let you go
I'm so... anxious
Life, is so complicated,
Everywhere I go, every hour I spend, with everything I do, these thoughts of this person repeat over and over again, its so crazy, but I can’t deny that it’s true. I work so hard to make my ends meet, to accomplish my interests, yet I feel a yearning to want to help and comfort another, because to me, they are really, the best. My mind is healthy, and still functioning properly in my pensive and precise mode, yet now and then I just drift off into this surreal world of ideas that I wish this person could witness, could behold. I wonder how a person seemingly so far away can make me feel so enlightened, so inspired, and yet, I smile knowing how for some, no distance possible can overcome this kind of desire. I will wait, without any of impatience’s pain, for I promise, and believe that these feelings are not in vain.
This wall of trust, as tall and thick as it must be, can not overshadow the outpour of love and joy this person has recently seemingly injected in me. When darkness, and unclear times come into play, I will be there for her, no matter what, somehow, someway, because, I feel that,
If she was mine I would be her everything, and she would be the only thing, that I would ever need. And if she was mine, I would tell everyone, that she is the only one, that I could ever want. Everything I dream about, and everything I talk about , one thing I just can’t seem to live without, I want to get closer to her. I can’t stand being so far away, knowing that she feels this way, all this stuff for her, she with tears in her eyes. I know for her there is someone else, but she must see that he is only thinking of himself, it just doesn’t make sense for her to be so lonely or to be hurt again.
I wish she would let me be the one to let me share her hopes and dreams, she would never be lonely, cause I would hold her endlessly, literally and spiritually. Please she must not be afraid to let her broken heart guide her, into arms that long to surround her. If, she was mine, I would be her everything, and she would be the only thing, that I would ever need, and if she was mine, I would tell everyone that she is the only one, that I could ever want. Life, is so complicated.
But this girl, she is amazing. Behind all the emotions of being broken, tell her that, she really is special to someone. Not only 1 person. It's Not just an after thought, or something u see everyday, not just a realization after finding myself. I know myself, I know where I walk, I know my direction. I don't just see something better for me, I see somebody who is just unique in their own way. There is a better day, there really is. And sometimes its right around the corner. I'm happy, I want to make things right. None of this, is bothering me. She deserves more, the best.
I am so sincere...
... And I'm waiting for that one answer...