Oh boy, I always try to paint or draw when I'm sad. It doesn't help that I have no idea what I'm doing. I end up drawing some weird looking tree while thinking, "I paint like a second grader." :x
the point is, you shouldn't try to get away from yourself. you should talk about it, to anyone you can, until you start to feel, and until things start to get better. trust me, i know how hard it is to force yourself to talk about stuff. i never used to do that, i always willingly talked about all of my problems, but nowadays i have to push it out. some days i'd rather just sleep the whole day, and sometimes i do just that. but it's better to push it out and talk. eventually you'll feel again, it'll hurt but you will, and then after a while more the hurt will start to go away. blah blah blah, this is just my synopsis on it. but talking really is a great thing. we don't have mouths for no reason.
drugs and drinking just fuck stuff up more. to be honest, i've wanted to fall back on it quite a few times, even right now it sounds tempting. but i've never had the time, money, or connections to really do that, and i'm glad for it.
I used to be an open book with my emotions, but that was before my depressed feelings were so intense. (I think it's getting worse as I get older. Gr8.) Whenever I open my mouth to talk about it, I just can't let it out. I really can't. I hate complaining for no reason, and that's exactly what I'd be doing. There is nothing majorly wrong with my life, so I wouldn't even know what to say. When anyone asks why I'm sad, I always say, "I don't even know." And that gets me nowhere.
You and I handle things the same way. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I'm just hoping that if I ignore this feeling long enough, it'll go away again.
I guess I don't really see what's wrong with running from some things sometimes. One day you deal with it and crash along to the next problem.
I didn't wanna go to bed, and I didn't wanna stay up late....
Listen to that song, man. Modest Mouse. I don't know the title, Breathing out, Breathing in or something. But its perfect for these times when they come.
"I didn't feel angry or depressed. I didn't feel anything at all. I didn't want to go to bed and I didn't want to stay awake."
It seems like any song they have, I can relate to it at one time or another. They automatically make me feel better for the moment when I listen to them.
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i'd have to say that i suffer from a little bit of a, b, and c- but then i'd just be a cliché ;]
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drugs and drinking just fuck stuff up more. to be honest, i've wanted to fall back on it quite a few times, even right now it sounds tempting. but i've never had the time, money, or connections to really do that, and i'm glad for it.
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Yesterday I slept from 1am - 7am. Went to school. Slept from 12pm - 6:30pm. By midnight I went back to sleep and I just woke up at 10:30.
These cycles suck, I know it. But hey, in five days if you feel down we can just cruise the streets. If that's of any comfort.
I love ya.
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You and I handle things the same way. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I'm just hoping that if I ignore this feeling long enough, it'll go away again.
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I didn't wanna go to bed, and I didn't wanna stay up late....
Listen to that song, man. Modest Mouse. I don't know the title, Breathing out, Breathing in or something. But its perfect for these times when they come.
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It seems like any song they have, I can relate to it at one time or another. They automatically make me feel better for the moment when I listen to them.
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