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I feel inadequate with a lot of things. Like...I'm just not good enough. I feel so insecure and unsure about my ability so I always tend to just assume I suck at everything. This has always been the case with school and what not but it's really starting to tick me off when i rp.
That's what's making me think it's so pathetic, rping is fun, but it's not my life. I have so many better things to do than it, and plus it's starting to make me feel like shit and happy at the same time somehow? Sometimes it makes me happy because lately i've been feeling lonely and dumb.
I'm such a praise-whore...but not really. I need praise in order to feel good about myself, to know I'm doing something right, but I'd rather not fish for compliments cause idk that's obnoxious? And plus if I don't get praise naturally then I'm not good enough.
so...I dunno where I was going with this but I just wanted to say how many issues i have, sigh.