[Fic] Revelation-Uruha/Ruki
Title: Revelation
Rating: M
Pairing: Uruha/Ruki (Gazette)
Warning: male/male sexual themes, strong language.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gazette.
A/N: the sequel to We only have this stage and Songbird,
Dedications: to my songbird where ever you are...
I practically ran down the narrow hallway in search of him. Each corner I rounded into was in hopes of running into him, but with the final shoot of our latest pv, the vocalist just seemed to have vanished.
"Uruha-San can I get you anything?"
"Have you seen Ruki?"
"Ah no sorry..."
My lips turned up in the fruitless effort, thinking what was the point of having all of these assistants if not one of them has seen Ruki. I continue to search for him, ignoring all the worried stares and offers to help remove my costume and makeup.
Yes I was still parading around in costume while everyone else was ready to split and go out for some celebratory drinks, but I was busy chasing after someone who wishes to be invisible, despite his popularity among the band.
But as much as he tries to run and hide my eyes always find him. And today, as we shot the last of our pv, they found him and wouldn't turn away.
It was so strange this power that came over me, I was doing fine fighting my emotions up until we started shooting this pv, and suddenly, it was as if all shackles that held me back from him shattered into a million pieces and that nothing else mattered anymore. That I had to get to him at all costs, to hold him, to kiss him, to make him mine. I said that I would cage you songbird but now I realize that you already are.
Instead…I want to be the one to set you free...
Your beautiful eyes said it all, your sorrows, your longing to stretch your wings and be free. I heard it all within your song too, your struggle...
I now know so just wait for me my songbird, I'm coming for you. No more will you have to endure all your pain alone, I want to be able to release you from all of it. If only just momentary, at least you would know that you won't have to be alone.
I turn one last darkened corner with thick black curtains and I find you there, finally, your beautiful eyes turned to the ground and then look up in surprise to see me out of breath. Well I was running and because...my heart was pounding it's way out of my chest because of you and this sudden revelation that managed to overwhelm me.
"Uruha." you utter and it never sounded so heavenly coming from your lips. It kind of made me wonder shamefully how my name would sound shouting it to me as I drive you over the edge in passion.
"Ruki..." I merely breathe because a million different things were going through my head at the moment. From telling you what it is that I feel for you to just simply kissing you and never letting you go because words won't exactly describe what I feel.
It was everything and anything good, bad, scary and exciting all at once. But when I managed to collect my thoughts together I did just that, I put all that I felt and more within a kiss, and hoped against hope that I didn't screw anything up.
But Ruki only gazed back at me, not so much in surprise than he was questioning me. And I knew from that look what he was thinking right away.
"I know I know I know Ruki, just hear me out!"
"I thought we agreed that it was for the best interest of the band."
"I know we did but damn Ruki I just can't take it anymore, being apart from you like this..."
"Uruha..."
"Wait." I hold onto you and pull you close until our foreheads were pressed together, the feeling now stronger than ever. And I could feel you my songbird that this is where you want to be too.
"We can't do this Uruha…" you say this with eyes shut tight and a tug at your lips, something that I know you’re forcing yourself to say.
"We can make it work!"
"How? if we fuck up and lose the band-"
"We won't have to Ruki not when we have this…"
You look up at me and my heart just flutters so I caress your cheeks. And like a kitten you lean into my touch, my face then pressed to yours, just ready to claim your lips once again. You're so close my darling, yet you're still unsure.
"What is this exactly, do we even know?"
I cup his face to look at me, questioning him.
“If its lust o-or infatuation I’m not interested Uruha, go to Aoi I bet he’s dying for a good fuck from you…”
He pushed me off and my heart is torn but I still grab him by his wrists and pull him close. “Ruki, how dare you….”
He still struggles out of my grasp, but wasn’t even trying really because my hold on his thin wrists was loose enough for him to fight back, but he wasn’t. “How could you even think that?”
I gave him a good jerk to force him to look at me, and when he did; his pretty face was distorted in anguish. “Just leave me alone….”
“No Ruki, you always do this...”
“What do you want from me??” he yelled and I was pretty sure someone could’ve heard that. But I didn’t care and pull him against me and I kiss him hard on his soft lips for an answer, again and again and again. Until I felt his insecurities slip away with every kiss, until his kisses became urgent for more.
And somehow through it all I ended up being the one pressed up against the wall with Ruki taking the lead now, weaving his tongue in and out with mine, his elegant fingers clutching my scarf to pull me further down and closer to him, it almost made me laugh now that I realized the height difference.
So with this fire burning deeper between us I picked him up and slammed him against the opposite wall, where I began to attack his neck with love bites and kisses there since he was breathless, and he craned his head back to catch his breath. He then pushed up against the wall bringing his hips closer to mine and I put in all the effort I had to lean back and settle him back down on his feet. Poor Ruki looked like a fish out of the water, my darling.
With a smile I plant a few kisses along his jaw line and whisper in his ear “because this isn’t about lust or infatuation my love…” I look into his half lidded eyes, the look on his face while panting was absolutely breathtaking, and we haven’t even gone that far yet. Imagine his face when releasing his seed.
No, this was my chance to prove to him that it wasn’t about having a fuck buddy, that this was the real thing I just know it. Because with Ruki there is a meaning to it.
I’ve had the pleasure of accompanying quite a few profound people for instant relief and gratification, some I’ve even frequented a lot as of late. And it always felt like with them it was just all fun with some special feelings behind each experience which would make it all the more enjoyable, I don’t just sell myself short for anyone you know.
But with Ruki, it was different somehow. Yes I could’ve taken him to bed a long time ago, he is my band mate after all and we have been on tours together in which had given me lots of chances of being alone with him. But for some reason I held back, for some reason, I felt like I couldn’t touch him, if I did then he would be like the others but Ruki was more important to me to be just another joy fuck. Much more important and the fact that we’re in the same band helps too.
The look on his face was different now, and it sort of through me off guard. It was a look of vulnerability, something we never see on Ruki because Ruki was always careful with displaying any type of emotions. He has this fixed mask like no force could ever penetrate, when really, behind the mask was a dying soul trying to grasp whatever of life we can get.
But my God was his sadness beautiful. Somehow his eyes look fuller, glossier, almond- shaped and sad and his complexion became paler with bruised shadows of sleepless nights slightly tinting the rims of his eyes. The worn out soul inside somehow came out and was standing before me instead of this glamorous rock star with an air of defiance and rebellious look.
And that was when I held him and held him tight. Rubbing his back, running my fingers through his hair, squeezing his neck…he just lay limp in my arms and I could almost feel the tension in his body let out with every ragged breath he exhales.
“Take me Uruha…take me away from here…” he mutters, making me smile. We pull apart and I still hold onto his hands. His gaze is turned towards the ground and it kind of bothers me that he’s still uncertain about all this. I admit I’m scared as well.
But my darling, my dear darling, we’re in this together, you’re not all alone. You can count on me to be there when you need me, but also expect times when I could be delayed. We’re still in a band together and as you already know a band requires lots and lots of work. But my darling songbird, you will never be out of my thoughts, I will still be loving you even when you try to push me away when you’re one of those moods.
And you can count on me to come back to when you’re not…
And to comfort you when the walls start closing in on you again…
And the nightmares play to no end…
And to catch the tears that fall from hitting the paper when the bitter truth behind your lyrics catches up to you. I will make your pain my own; your past experiences my nightmares, anything my darling, just to be with you.
Until your distress sleeps, fill me up with your grief…
Hours later, and I care not to know what time it is because with you like this, naked in my in my arms I feel as though time had stood still. Even though looking out the window it is clearly late into the night, the rest of the gang is probably wondering where we are.
But again I can care less.
You sigh in your sleep and I swear it sounds so heavenly that I rub your back, its smooth like silk, beautiful, just like the rest of you. I could stay like this with you forever; it feels so right, so right that it pains me greatly when we have to part ways in the morning.
See, even without sex we proved that it was right, that it was the real thing. I hold you tighter as I can’t seem to shake off the image of you pleading for me to take you earlier, even bringing you to your knees. Please forgive me my songbird, I hate denying you of anything but it was necessary to prove to us both that this was real, that I m not and will not take advantage of you when you’re most vulnerable. I promised to set you free and the time will come my love, but for now, this will do. So rest your body here with me and leave your soul for me to heal. With me you have no boundaries; with me you can be free.
I’m smiling now because you’re moaning softly in your sleep and I continue to rub your back soothingly, occasionally grasping some of that auburn-colored hair gently. I’m happy to hear that you’re finally letting go of your grief and anguish. If only in your sleep, at least it’s a start and a taste of what is to come. It will be hard but you must endure, it could be painful but my dearest you know I will never intentionally hurt you, but I guess for now rest my songbird, rest and be free.
Rating: M
Pairing: Uruha/Ruki (Gazette)
Warning: male/male sexual themes, strong language.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gazette.
A/N: the sequel to We only have this stage and Songbird,
Dedications: to my songbird where ever you are...
I practically ran down the narrow hallway in search of him. Each corner I rounded into was in hopes of running into him, but with the final shoot of our latest pv, the vocalist just seemed to have vanished.
"Uruha-San can I get you anything?"
"Have you seen Ruki?"
"Ah no sorry..."
My lips turned up in the fruitless effort, thinking what was the point of having all of these assistants if not one of them has seen Ruki. I continue to search for him, ignoring all the worried stares and offers to help remove my costume and makeup.
Yes I was still parading around in costume while everyone else was ready to split and go out for some celebratory drinks, but I was busy chasing after someone who wishes to be invisible, despite his popularity among the band.
But as much as he tries to run and hide my eyes always find him. And today, as we shot the last of our pv, they found him and wouldn't turn away.
It was so strange this power that came over me, I was doing fine fighting my emotions up until we started shooting this pv, and suddenly, it was as if all shackles that held me back from him shattered into a million pieces and that nothing else mattered anymore. That I had to get to him at all costs, to hold him, to kiss him, to make him mine. I said that I would cage you songbird but now I realize that you already are.
Instead…I want to be the one to set you free...
Your beautiful eyes said it all, your sorrows, your longing to stretch your wings and be free. I heard it all within your song too, your struggle...
I now know so just wait for me my songbird, I'm coming for you. No more will you have to endure all your pain alone, I want to be able to release you from all of it. If only just momentary, at least you would know that you won't have to be alone.
I turn one last darkened corner with thick black curtains and I find you there, finally, your beautiful eyes turned to the ground and then look up in surprise to see me out of breath. Well I was running and because...my heart was pounding it's way out of my chest because of you and this sudden revelation that managed to overwhelm me.
"Uruha." you utter and it never sounded so heavenly coming from your lips. It kind of made me wonder shamefully how my name would sound shouting it to me as I drive you over the edge in passion.
"Ruki..." I merely breathe because a million different things were going through my head at the moment. From telling you what it is that I feel for you to just simply kissing you and never letting you go because words won't exactly describe what I feel.
It was everything and anything good, bad, scary and exciting all at once. But when I managed to collect my thoughts together I did just that, I put all that I felt and more within a kiss, and hoped against hope that I didn't screw anything up.
But Ruki only gazed back at me, not so much in surprise than he was questioning me. And I knew from that look what he was thinking right away.
"I know I know I know Ruki, just hear me out!"
"I thought we agreed that it was for the best interest of the band."
"I know we did but damn Ruki I just can't take it anymore, being apart from you like this..."
"Uruha..."
"Wait." I hold onto you and pull you close until our foreheads were pressed together, the feeling now stronger than ever. And I could feel you my songbird that this is where you want to be too.
"We can't do this Uruha…" you say this with eyes shut tight and a tug at your lips, something that I know you’re forcing yourself to say.
"We can make it work!"
"How? if we fuck up and lose the band-"
"We won't have to Ruki not when we have this…"
You look up at me and my heart just flutters so I caress your cheeks. And like a kitten you lean into my touch, my face then pressed to yours, just ready to claim your lips once again. You're so close my darling, yet you're still unsure.
"What is this exactly, do we even know?"
I cup his face to look at me, questioning him.
“If its lust o-or infatuation I’m not interested Uruha, go to Aoi I bet he’s dying for a good fuck from you…”
He pushed me off and my heart is torn but I still grab him by his wrists and pull him close. “Ruki, how dare you….”
He still struggles out of my grasp, but wasn’t even trying really because my hold on his thin wrists was loose enough for him to fight back, but he wasn’t. “How could you even think that?”
I gave him a good jerk to force him to look at me, and when he did; his pretty face was distorted in anguish. “Just leave me alone….”
“No Ruki, you always do this...”
“What do you want from me??” he yelled and I was pretty sure someone could’ve heard that. But I didn’t care and pull him against me and I kiss him hard on his soft lips for an answer, again and again and again. Until I felt his insecurities slip away with every kiss, until his kisses became urgent for more.
And somehow through it all I ended up being the one pressed up against the wall with Ruki taking the lead now, weaving his tongue in and out with mine, his elegant fingers clutching my scarf to pull me further down and closer to him, it almost made me laugh now that I realized the height difference.
So with this fire burning deeper between us I picked him up and slammed him against the opposite wall, where I began to attack his neck with love bites and kisses there since he was breathless, and he craned his head back to catch his breath. He then pushed up against the wall bringing his hips closer to mine and I put in all the effort I had to lean back and settle him back down on his feet. Poor Ruki looked like a fish out of the water, my darling.
With a smile I plant a few kisses along his jaw line and whisper in his ear “because this isn’t about lust or infatuation my love…” I look into his half lidded eyes, the look on his face while panting was absolutely breathtaking, and we haven’t even gone that far yet. Imagine his face when releasing his seed.
No, this was my chance to prove to him that it wasn’t about having a fuck buddy, that this was the real thing I just know it. Because with Ruki there is a meaning to it.
I’ve had the pleasure of accompanying quite a few profound people for instant relief and gratification, some I’ve even frequented a lot as of late. And it always felt like with them it was just all fun with some special feelings behind each experience which would make it all the more enjoyable, I don’t just sell myself short for anyone you know.
But with Ruki, it was different somehow. Yes I could’ve taken him to bed a long time ago, he is my band mate after all and we have been on tours together in which had given me lots of chances of being alone with him. But for some reason I held back, for some reason, I felt like I couldn’t touch him, if I did then he would be like the others but Ruki was more important to me to be just another joy fuck. Much more important and the fact that we’re in the same band helps too.
The look on his face was different now, and it sort of through me off guard. It was a look of vulnerability, something we never see on Ruki because Ruki was always careful with displaying any type of emotions. He has this fixed mask like no force could ever penetrate, when really, behind the mask was a dying soul trying to grasp whatever of life we can get.
But my God was his sadness beautiful. Somehow his eyes look fuller, glossier, almond- shaped and sad and his complexion became paler with bruised shadows of sleepless nights slightly tinting the rims of his eyes. The worn out soul inside somehow came out and was standing before me instead of this glamorous rock star with an air of defiance and rebellious look.
And that was when I held him and held him tight. Rubbing his back, running my fingers through his hair, squeezing his neck…he just lay limp in my arms and I could almost feel the tension in his body let out with every ragged breath he exhales.
“Take me Uruha…take me away from here…” he mutters, making me smile. We pull apart and I still hold onto his hands. His gaze is turned towards the ground and it kind of bothers me that he’s still uncertain about all this. I admit I’m scared as well.
But my darling, my dear darling, we’re in this together, you’re not all alone. You can count on me to be there when you need me, but also expect times when I could be delayed. We’re still in a band together and as you already know a band requires lots and lots of work. But my darling songbird, you will never be out of my thoughts, I will still be loving you even when you try to push me away when you’re one of those moods.
And you can count on me to come back to when you’re not…
And to comfort you when the walls start closing in on you again…
And the nightmares play to no end…
And to catch the tears that fall from hitting the paper when the bitter truth behind your lyrics catches up to you. I will make your pain my own; your past experiences my nightmares, anything my darling, just to be with you.
Until your distress sleeps, fill me up with your grief…
Hours later, and I care not to know what time it is because with you like this, naked in my in my arms I feel as though time had stood still. Even though looking out the window it is clearly late into the night, the rest of the gang is probably wondering where we are.
But again I can care less.
You sigh in your sleep and I swear it sounds so heavenly that I rub your back, its smooth like silk, beautiful, just like the rest of you. I could stay like this with you forever; it feels so right, so right that it pains me greatly when we have to part ways in the morning.
See, even without sex we proved that it was right, that it was the real thing. I hold you tighter as I can’t seem to shake off the image of you pleading for me to take you earlier, even bringing you to your knees. Please forgive me my songbird, I hate denying you of anything but it was necessary to prove to us both that this was real, that I m not and will not take advantage of you when you’re most vulnerable. I promised to set you free and the time will come my love, but for now, this will do. So rest your body here with me and leave your soul for me to heal. With me you have no boundaries; with me you can be free.
I’m smiling now because you’re moaning softly in your sleep and I continue to rub your back soothingly, occasionally grasping some of that auburn-colored hair gently. I’m happy to hear that you’re finally letting go of your grief and anguish. If only in your sleep, at least it’s a start and a taste of what is to come. It will be hard but you must endure, it could be painful but my dearest you know I will never intentionally hurt you, but I guess for now rest my songbird, rest and be free.