buddha nature

[vhaln_zur]

just woke up from a nap, with more thoughts about that crazy psilocybin dextromethorphan trip i had the other night. seems my brain is still trying to process it on some level, and just maybe, there was more to it than just writhing around on the floor consumed by anxiety ridden delusions

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[jennibel]

with re: to all your different, lost past selves, etc., and your thoughts of getting out of it all and attaining enlightenment... would that mean that once you had reached enlightenment you would cease to change? you'd become enlightened, 10 years would pass, you'd look back and not see different past selves anymore, like you do now, but just one Self? hard to imagine not changing, ever... seems to go against everything i tend to think i understand about life, and time, and how they intersect with one another.

[vhaln_zur]

What I was thinking during my more recent trip was that "enlightenment" wasn't something you attained, in the sense of that's that, now you're enlightened. More like just something you experience, and just as prone to impermanence as everything else. I think the whole idea that enlightenment is like some sort of escape from impermanence could be a misunderstanding. Maybe it's more that it's just a feeling of temporary escape, in the moment you experience it.

The idea that its something one could attain and own, forever and ever, doesn't just go against my views on life and time, but a lot of what's taught in Buddhism, too. IIRC, even Gautama is said to have taught that his existence was just as impermanent as everyone else's.

[jennibel]

hmm, maybe we'll have to ponder this again this weekend :) it's difficult for me to wrap my mind around the idea of "enlightenment" being as impermanent as anything else is. part of me wants to say, of course it is, everything is. but another part of me can't seem to grasp being "enlightened" one second, then back to being a silly ape the next.... :p

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