Things are going a little better this week. The only thing is if I'm alone between 11 pm - midnight I invariably start getting depressed and end up crying. I've been trying to keep busy during this time, though it's a lot easier on the weekends. I'm also trying to focus a lot more on me and what makes me happy, instead of worrying all the time ( Read more... )

I am soo tired about worrying how my actions will affect other people instead of worrying how things will make me feel. Then, every time I finally stand up for myself I get yelled at. WTF?

No one stops to think how it'll affect me, so why should I bother?

Blah me and my caring about other people.

I am so STUPID. Why the f*ck did I let him do that to me again?!?! I feel rejected all over again.

I wish I had someone to cry to :(

It's over.

Finally.

I wish I wasn't crying so much over this. He already made me cry every single night for the past two weeks except for Saturday, so why why why can't I just be happy it's over?

I feel pushed aside and I feel really dumb for letting myself care so much.
Stupid Stupid Stupid.

<3 to Squashy.

http://www.nwclive.com/ - This show was absolutely hilarious!!! <33333333333333333333333333

So I was watching Beauty & the Geek tonight, and I totally recognized a shirt that a guy was wearing from thinkgeek.com. Haha, awesome. I am also glad they finally got a girl geek on there. About time.

I don't usually watch it, but it might be interesting this time around.

Also, I am finally making some friends around here. Yay!

WWWWHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee

Yes, my parents need to stop being so protective of me. It's actually amazing that I could stay out until 1 am for them. This is what I hate about being a girl.

If only my place was closer to Denver. Except not, because then they could/would stop by a lot more often.

Arg.

And Arg again.