I haven't had time to update or keep up with anyone. Things have felt very hectic. Nick and I are moving out of our apartment and trying to get everything prepared for that. We've decided that the energy there is just not helping our situation at all. We've been seeing each other on a much more regular basis now though. Things have actually been ( Read more... )

I met him at the apartment Tuesday night. Or, he met me. I was cleaning. I was also dancing and singing along to music I had playing. Hey, I can multitask. He came in, his nose pink from the cold, and hugged me. I didn't want to hug him back. I was a woman on a mission. I was determined to be hardened. I continued bopping around the house, and he ( Read more... )

"It is good to feel lost, because it proves you have a navigational sense of where 'Home' is. You know that a place that feels like being found exists. And maybe your current location isn't that place but, Hallelujah, that unsettled, uneasy feeling of lost-ness just brought you closer to it."

On the first of the month, it was time to pay rent. All ( Read more... )

Holy hell. I haven't been able to update at all. There are numerous reasons for this--

1. Mama sleepy. This pregnancy makes me sleep. And sleep. And sleep.
2. The computer I use most of the time is currently hooked up to a large-screen TV, and thus allows for very little privacy to write.
3. Busy! We've been busy with the holidays, and I've been catching up on ( Read more... )

I sometimes sit and do some serious musing about my life and the paths it's taken.

I have big aspirations, or had. I hope they'll still one day come to fruition. I want to complete my Masters in Midwifery, and I want to travel overseas to live for a year or two and help women who are impoverished. In my big dreams, Kyan would travel with me. In my ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's the hormones that are making me overly sensitive, or if I genuinely have a reason to be so upset, but dammit man.

When I quit work last week, Nick had told me the investors would be paying him and have his contract drawn up by Tuesday. Then Wednesday. Then Thursday. Then today. This morning, Nick called them, and the day has now ( Read more... )

I'm so exhausted. Nick and I have been running around looking at houses since we woke up. We went to look at three in this amazing community called [Legacy Park]. The first two were both amazing, although I think we're leaning toward the second. We never did get to see the third because the realtor never showed up (bravo, professional!). The whole ( Read more... )

I've been holding off on talking about this because I didn't want to jinx it, or get my hopes, or sit here and rave about it only to have to post the next day saying "it was all horse-shit, fuck my life." However, the more real the whole situation becomes, the more comfortable I'm starting to feel about just putting it out there. A while back, when ( Read more... )

I can't lie.
This pregnancy has me laying on my car horn every time I think someone is driving like an idiot. It also has me doing things like huffing and puffing when Kyan nags me to turn on another episode of Batman, or crying when my computer just won't turn on (it's true-- I've been using Nick's Macbook ever since mine decided it time to go to ( Read more... )

I am terrible at journaling. It's official. However, I have newfound reason to dedicate more time to it. I have something I definitely, certainly, absolutely want to chronicle. What is it?

I'm pregnant!
(AGAIN!)

I'm mind-boggled. I mentioned previously that Nick and I were discussing adding to the family, but neither of us expected it to happen so ( Read more... )