- Flips/Acrobatics ( Read more... )

Well, at least people online can't find my /HAND WRITTEN/ journals. I was comfortable exposing these thoughts with Helly, and other people are usually okay too.. it was just a huge shock when Katie -ripped- my journal out of the depths of the net. And I thought I was good at stalking people. Clearly I have a lot to learn ( Read more... )

for my future self: Think back to this situation, what do I regret doing the most? Is my weakness now something that still plagues me in the future? How is your current relationship going? I put myself on the line and was almost rejected, again, for friendship ( Read more... )

Well, what was supposed to be a list of everything I want is turning into a confession ( Read more... )

Went to the gym. I did. It closes at 8pm on Fridays and Saturdays. No one told me until 8pm this evening. (Friday) The person who told me was the person closing the gym. I was cycling. On the upright bike. I managed to get in 25 minutes. I looked at my arms in the mirror a few minutes ago and felt weak. I want to look at them and feel ( Read more... )

I'm going to call it "Fluke Love ( Read more... )

THAT DID NOT FEEL RIGHT
of course it didn't.. it felt wrong but.. it felt neccessary... i needed the closure

talk about a rollercoaster.

i want the will power to be perfect.

being flawed is so much easier, but i wouldnt be able to taste the beautiful nature of it all

dulled, or sharpened?

I wonder what's going on in my brain when I'm upset. Are the neurons struggling to rearrange themselves in a happier configuration? Or is it like an old abandoned well, with some murky stagnation at the wee bottom. I tried staring at the floor of my room for a long time while wearing sunglasses. It helped. It made me bored ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking about Katie. Basically, whenever i'm out having a good time, she comes to mind. Whenever i'm out having a bad time, she comes to mind. I cannot discuss this with Helly, as she is, as I thought, still too emotionally attached to me ( Read more... )