long term goal: nomadicity

[vicksen]

in a strange attempt to exhibit my car's axle's problems, I think I fucked it up more. I am supposed to be leaving for work in forty-five minutes, though I am uncertain whether I'll return (in something other than a tow truck).. I am unsure whether or not I am going to go or not yet, really. is fifty dollars worth the stress of wondering whether

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[cdc690]

no matter what, smart people can never be complacent. I too know of this fact.

I think that hits the nail on the head

[clockworx]

And I wish that the plateaus lasted, but it's not long before my brain starts saying more, more, more. There's about a million cliches that would fit into this comment, but "ignorance is bliss" works well enough for me.

I often wonder if I'll ever reach a point where I say "Hey...this, right now....this isn't too bad." and it will last more than a few hours/days.

God damn this noise inside my head...

Re: I think that hits the nail on the head

[cdc690]

Im not sure who you are, but comment is well noted. I too wonder if i can be happy for more then 120 mins at a time. There was this one moment in life where i was truly happy, but i think i awoke from that dream. Only to hear i think i have to go home.

[vicksen]

Alex, "meet" Dave. Dave, Alex..
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I don't think you're supposed to be happy all the time. something about needing something to compare it to. the sweet wouldn't be as sweet if you didn't know what bitter tasted like.

I wish you were happy more often, but this is life.. a series of mishappenings and circumstantial chances. try to think about it like a chess game- you're going to lose/sacrifice pieces of your kingdom in order to achieve victory in battles (and eventually, the war). it's troubleshooting, which isn't fun necessarily, but the challenge of it.. and the eventual overcoming of a problem (which I know you always do).. it's that much more satisfying (because you know and have felt otherwise).

to be perfectly honest, I don't always latch on to this ideal, but I do try and remind myself relatively often. it really is easy to overlook..

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