My Life Sucks!!
Well, I haven't updated this thing in a really long time.
Facebook has become my journal, well not really, but you get the picture! Also, there are some things I don't want to discuss on Facebook because well I'm embarrass by it.
Anyway, to catch myself and anyone else who still reads this thing up to date. This is what has happened. I left Kohls and got a job as as customer service rep for an insurance education company. I started there in Feb of 2016 and got put on a Performance Improvement Plan on May 6th. So it almost 3 months on the job, I was told I wasn't doing well. I was upset and felt dumb. I cried a lot. My first real job and I messed up. It wasn't really a problem with attendance or attitude. It was more so I couldn't do the job to their standards. The job wasn't hard at all, it was easy. Some of the things they said were I wouldn't retain what I was being told, I kept on spelling the same things wrong, etc.
I had two months to improve or I would lose my job. I tried my hardest, but I could tell I wasn't where they wanted me to be at. That broke my heart. I left before they could fire me. I then called the courthouse to see if I could get back in with them. They tracked down my application and I started there on August 15th. Unlike the other job, they have a 3 month probation period. I got let go from that job on November 3rd. Part of it really wasn't my fault IMO, they said my notes were not long enough and I would send too many call tickets up to the caseworkers. I did ask my supervisor that I felt I was sending too many up, but she didn't say anything and told me it was the caseworkers job to handle it.
I did try to defend myself to the deputy director, but she wasn't having it. It was all let as if no matter what I said, I would be let go. Anyway, after meeting with my pastor, he felt that maybe it was a good thing I was let go. He said it doesn't seem like a good place. It really wasn't. The training was horrible. Also, do I really want to work somewhere that won't try to help the employee?
Anyway, they said the same thing as my previous employer. I'm not maintaining what was said to me and I keep on asking the same questions as before. I told my mom this, and she said it is because of my auditory processing disorder. Pretty much, my brain takes longer to process information than my ears. My ears hear perfectly, but my brain doesn't. Anyway, I have made a few phone call and hope to have some answers before the year ends.
Weird part about this is, I kind of feel like Tim Tebow. However, I keep getting cut from call centers. Tim gets cut from football.
What is sad is that I was really looking forward to this year and Black Friday. Well, I don't have a job so I won't be doing any shopping. It really sucks. My first Black Friday not in retail, and I can't have fun with it because I don't have a job.
However, what really upsets me, "some people have it worse than you". I understand that there are people who lose their house, friends, spouse, child, etc. I know that and realize I am blessed where I don't have to worry about a mortgage or anything. However, it still sucks! I do have bills I have to pay. I know it's not a house or anything, but I still have bills.
I think that's all for now. I'll update later once I have more information on what exactly is wrong with me.