just in case any of you still give a shit... ... ...

[victim_of_now]

i posted a questionnaire march 1st for you all to fill out. my purpose in posting it was to ascertain who exactly cares about me, and still takes time to read my livejournal

Comments

[warp_10]

I responded to your survey post... honey, you know I love you, I just don't even check my computer for email/livejournal/myspace for days at a time sometimes. But I see you and talk to you a LOT, that's a pretty good excuse for not having posted here a lot. What more is there to say?

[victim_of_now]

i know, golly. you were the least of my "worries" sweetheart. obviously, i know you still care about me. the people i am wondering about are the people who have all but vanished off my radar screen for one reason or another. you're just too hard on yourself sometimes, kiddo. :o
love,
laura

[xchrisx23]

I do care.. I just get busy. But do know, you're still pretty much the shit no matter what

And yes, you're pretty much God. :-D

[victim_of_now]

finally, someone acknowledges my god-like status!

and oddly enough, despite your busy life, you are the #2 most common poster in my livejournal. you're busy because you take time for you friends, to really show them how much you care about them, to invest a part of yourself in each of their lives. i am glad to be in that company known as "your friends." i am distant most of the time (that's what happens when you're a god), but i do try to reciprocate your friendship. i hope i do it justice.

- laura

[chiefmike]

lol, I care! The sarcasm's a little intense, but I care.

We need to talk online more... has your screenname changed, 'cause I don't seem to ever see you on AIM...

[victim_of_now]

my screen name hasn't changed, per se...
it's more that AIM is being highly uncooperative.
you see, when i log into AIM, it lovingly logs me off 7-9 minutes later. i really can't chat under those conditions. i have found a solution to the problem, but due to the fact that i'm at home, in dial-up land, i cannot download the necessary software (in any less than 9 days). i will make efforts to correct this problem come sunday or monday, when i return to my humble dormitory.

until then, i will be most noticeably absent from everyone's AIM buddy lists.

and yes, i suppose the sarcasm was a bit excessive, but i was in a lonely/burned state, and sarcasm (rather than girly crying or testosterone-driven anger) is how i generally deal with things.

much love, and thanks for the comment,
laura

[anonymous]

I didn't respond to your survey because I don't read *anyone's* journal for the most part. Heck, I barely know you. But seriously, if your journal brings you happiness, please don't close it on account of others. You've got your own thing going on. :)

Marc (with a "C")

[victim_of_now]

(okay, so this is the second time i'm writing this. my internet connection betrayed me... i assure you, my first draft was vastly better

[anonymous]

I just saw this! Right now! I'm sorry, I don't go online on weekends. I'm in front of a computer all day at work and the idea of sitting at a computer when I don't have to makes my eyes boil.

I'm sorry you feel this way about your journal. I have to say that I understand where you're coming from in a certain way. Part of being on LJ is that people respond to you and interact with you. But sometimes they don't, for whatever reason. And it's frustrating, especially knowing that you keep up with them. I hope this wakes some people up, but please remember that you're lovely, and that you don't need people's validation to remind you of that. I'm sure James would agree!

I know I don't know you well, but you really are very special. It always makes me happy to see you two at Marc's shows. I know it means a lot to him as well.

Hugs and love!
- Nicole

[victim_of_now]

oh goodness, no need to apologize. i wasn't expecting a comment from you or marc. i don't go online too often over the weekends either. i know where you're coming from on that one.

thank you very much for the uplifting words and the compliments. james had better agree, haha.

it makes me quite happy to be at marc's shows. i wish i could get to more of them. between living in two places on opposite sides of town, and not having a car, be able to attend any event is entirely up to the fates.

love,
laura

p.s. one can always tell when an english major writes something, after comparing it to other comments and posts. it's just so much clearer, prettier... just, nicer in every way. i don't consider myself a very polished writer, but i can certainly admire it in others, such as yourself.

[hottashley]

I still read your journal usually Laura... I LOVE YOU and miss you. hope you are doing well. ttyl.
love,
me

[victim_of_now]

i am doing well, approximately 34.2% of the time. the rest of the time i'm sleeping, or in class, or in my dorm room, bored.
i guess that's why i wanted to know where all my friends had gone. apparently, my friends are here, en masse, which is so fucking awesome.

at any rate, i need to see you (singular) and you all (plural) again. if you ever want to hang out, cell: 321-663-6413.

love,
laura