why did you redo this? you know what you doing things like this does to me...look I feel so bad for what I said to you...it's just I want to have a normal friendship with you. I want to be able to have fun with you and you have fun in return. Without you always being down and/or bringing yourself down...i hate it when you do that. i want our friendship to be like...we can just go out or meet up somewhere and laugh and have a good. be able to spend unforgetable moments together...not bg/gf but best of friends...i wish...but I guess I'm asking too much...
Ahem, you're the only person I can depend on and you say you're sick and tired of me... Of course I want to go and meet you someplace, but when I try to call to tell you when I thought we could go to the movies, you either don' return my calls or aren't home. I can't see you ever, I can only talk to you on the phone, and even then, half the time you don't even pickup... You're the only person I really love Tori-Chan, but you keep drifting, and anytime I try to talk to you about something, you get mad at me, I'm so sorry for all the guilt I've caused... I just don't want to be part of your life anymore, it's not worth it, the only thing I do is make you feel guilty, I'm worth nothing... I know you hate it when I put myself down but what in Rathma's name can I honestly say that I do right? I plague you with guilt, I dissapoint my parents, I push away my friends, I scare children, I snap, I'm harsh, I don't remember the last time I even played with my sister because she fucking hates me
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But you fail to mention the times that we actually DO talk on the phone..funny...and just to tell you...although i probably shouldn't be saying this and it's not guilt you caused me, I caused it myself...but since the other day when I said that to you I've felt so bad, it's one of the things I can't get off my mind
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P.S. I started writting a poem...
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