There's an interview with him on Youtube, the views climb at a steady rate because I've watched it dozens of times and I continue to watch it as long as it's there ( Read more... )

Homesick today. Not in the old way. Just miss the warmth and the golden hills. The dry grass and oak trees. Acorns all over the ground.I miss the sound of crickets and swimming and hiking with friends. There was a short amount of time when we lived perfect lives of little nymphs, letting our wings dry slowly in the sun. Our only worries were in our ( Read more... )

How can I "stay true to myself" if I don't know who I am or what I really want?
When will I know these things?

Text Messages:

Oct 16, 2013, 12:08 AM

I cannot sleep

Oh no
Whyyyyy
Should I bring something?
Sleepytime tea?

Busy getting lost in the past
Stupid

What does that mean
I remember when you talked for the first time

What do you mean?And then we got ginger margaritas at 7a ( Read more... )

There are times when I tell him that all I need is him to be happy. And he always replies with "That's all I ever wanted". Those words every time. Said like he's been waiting for me his whole strange life, or as if the day we were introduced he wanted to lay out our wonderful future together in a fast and true agreement on the sidewalk in the East ( Read more... )

Driving down Geary in the dark, it doesn't seem like the street lights are on. They must be though, because the world is moving as usual, according to plan, despite what is happening in your car.
Right on Divisadero, left onto Oak, follow the line of cars to Octavia, speed onto the freeway and out of the city. I know it well by now.

Utterly Pathetic.

I miss being heartbroken, at least it was certain.

"It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls, but only that we had loved them, and that they hadn't heard us calling, still do not hear us, up here in the tree house, with our thinning hair and soft bellies, calling them out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time, alone in suicide, which is deeper ( Read more... )

On second thought, no you may not see that entry.