I'm sorry.

[vierblith_tefu]

Uhm. I did tell you that I'm soul-searching. I think I'm going to give up writing explicit TezukaFuji romance. Maybe I'll still write them as friends or as friends with uhm, romantic er hints. But I'll definitely not write them in PG 13 (and up) fics. (The last of those fics is the drive-a fic

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[isumi_ilde]

Aaah~ I had a feeling you'd say this after reading your last post about soul-searching. TT-TT And yeah, though I understand what you mean, I'm still sad. Blame me. >__< But your TeFu is always beautiful and great to read because you're really talented, and it'd be such a loss if you stopped writing them.

Then again, you're still going to write about them even though in different ways, ne? =D I'll be looking forward to that. XD

[vierblith_tefu]

Aww. *hugs*
I'll still write them in cute ways, I think. :D

[violeteyedhair]

I stopped writing yaoi fanfiction when I did my soul-searching a few years ago too. >.>

(Though that didn't stop me from reading it. XD)

[violeteyedhair]

I should probably say more, I think. I was really depressed at that point and I knew I was "losing myself" so to speak in yaoi, because I was indulging in homosexuality without coming to terms with being a lesbian myself. To try and remedy it, I had actually tried to stay away from anime/manga/video games in general. That didn't last long, and neither did staying away from fanfiction entirely.

But now when I write, I never write romance at all, and I only let myself write original characters. It's not that I think it's "dirty" or "unworthy" to write smut or yaoi or yuri or even het, I just find that it's a lot easier to lose control of myself in those genres.

Basically, "I think I understand" is what I am trying to say!

[vierblith_tefu]

I feel like I'm in limbo. I don't know what to write, but I want to write. :( I need a new source of bunnies. *sigh*

But yes. I don't want to lose control and all the signs point to giving the romance TezukaFuji up.

Thank you!

[a1y_puff]

Nooooo ;A;
...
Uh. Yeah. Not that I don't understand, but it's really sad to hear this... I hope you could still work on ORHANM and Remembrance somehow. But if not... It's really sad but it was great while it lasted :')

[vierblith_tefu]

*hugs*

I do hope I could still work on them. I love those fics very much. :( :( :( I think I can try.

*huuuuugs*

[vierblith_tefu]

Oh, and I forgot to greet you yesterday because I kept thinking that today would be the 7th. T_T
A belated...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~~~

[a1y_puff]

Thank you! *hugs*

And well, at least you wouldn't stop writing TeFu altogether, ne? Coz if you did, who's going to be the TeFu Mistress? XD;

[emothy]

So, I may have only just friended you and I don't know the details of your situation, so all I can say is: you have to do what makes you happiest. Do whatever is comfortable and works for you, and remember no decision has to be carved in stone. you can change you mind at any time, or alter your plans. That doesn't matter :)

Too much of any one thing can be hard to handle, but denying yourself completely can be hard too. Maybe your soul-searching will help you decide on a happy medium someday :*

[vierblith_tefu]

Aww... Yes, indeed. I hope to find answers while I soul-search. Thank you!

[tacuma811]

I'm really going to miss your stories. I loved them. I just finished reading your fic at Drive A and it remembered me how awesome your stories are. I'm really gonna miss your multi-chaps, like ORHANM >_< I was looking forward to the end of it. It's going to be different with just frienship.
But I can understand your decision. Good luck and I hope to read another of your fics again soon ^_^

[vierblith_tefu]

*cries* Yes. I wanted to end them properly. Maybe I just need to take a different attack. I will see what can be done to salvage them.

Thank you!

[tacuma811]

I hope you can end them the way you want them ^_^ I'm just glad you're not completely leaving TezuFuji!