Did you know Eeyore's birthday is on December 25th? It is.

[viksin]

I know I will always have depression because no matter how good things get, no matter how well I feel, no matter how many negative ideas I can strongly kick to the curb, my mind is always tainted with dysfunctional trip wires that come out of nowhere. It's completely irrational. It's a gun-wielding clown. It's a crying baby. It's a smoking monkey

Comments

[nicholay]

Thank you for posting that. I can't imagine what it would be like to *not* have a constant barrage of ridiculous thoughts that bring me down. I'm glad you're feeling good today. Sorry for missing your shindig.

[viksin]

I know. It gets so you feel like it's normal since it's always been there. But it isn't. It wears me out. But then I don't realize it wears me out. I'll have a perfect day, no worries, but I am wiped out from fighting that voice all day.

[superna]

You have such a way of explaining things - maybe that description would get through to folks who think depression is a simple matter of crying a lot.

I am lucky in that Zoloft shut off my endless tape loop of negative voices pretty well, Wellbutrin offsets the sleepiness from the Zoloft, and neither causes me much side effects other than that. But now I'm afraid to go off the meds, and I wonder how life will be if they quit working for me.