I see a particular pattern forming out of the little bit I know of your life: Tonto always craves for what he can't have. Open your eyes. He'll be back someday, and you already have what you were craving for the last time I checked. Enjoy one thing at a time. Here's a hug:)
No, Hada, it´s not that. I am not craving a thing, I am only trying to say goodbye. He won´t be back, not to me at least, not the boy I used to love, not my child. I don´t care what you all think about me, what he thinks about me, I have this heart and I have to live with it. I don´t think you could be beaming if you were happily living with your Highlander and you knew that one of your kidneys is dying eh?
Is that what's going on? wow! :( I am sorry, i misjudged you for lack of information... I still think your heart is just fine and I'm sure no one thinks less of you in any way. Don't believe in the word "never", it loves to fool us.
Ah, Helmy... I'm sorry, darling, I truly am. Sweet-sounding words are of little use to you, I know. ~holds your hand~
Perhaps all anyone in your position can do is to put your energies into caring for Gabriel and Allen, into finding a new home and building up your business ideas; into concentrating on immediate and practical things.
you mean he didn´t say goodbye to you? sighs. Don´t think bad, he was not being himself lately.
I am getting tired of all this, he was the reason of the journal and of course, the board. I want to know new people,new ideas, a new atmosphere...
My energies are focused on them, smiling, this boy of mine will be a giant at the pace he eats! I need to buy new clothes this afternoon, nobody told me you shouldn´t wash their clothes in the machine. His mother will cut my balls into pieces.
There are no right words to say Vil to comfort you. This I know and I only ask that you take care and do whatever it takes to help you heal the hurt. I think you know there are people who care very much for you and will wait and be here if you need them. -smiles-
I know this is difficult to understand when you truly love someone it ..The greatest thing you can do is love them even they are not around. Not so long ago I lost someone I loved a lot .I have lived my whole life with him by my side .He died of cancer . I learned that he is still alive and I will keep loving him.Because he's there in my heart and he lives on becuase I have not stop remembering our precious times together and there is where I can still love him eventough he's not around. And who knows your love is still alive he might change his mind. But always remember the precious moments you shared. And try to imagine if he never existed in yourlife. Life is a bitch sometimes . But we have to make the best out of it Take it from someone who has to take tranquilizers to survive ... and guess what I adopted a kitten today !!!
YOU DID??? awwwww, squeals, boy or girl? colour? name? a naughty or quiet one? I don´t want to talk about things now...it´s like a constant pain within and you are not supposed to be sad when you have it all, but you can´t help it.
Comments 41
Open your eyes. He'll be back someday, and you already have what you were craving for the last time I checked. Enjoy one thing at a time. Here's a hug:)
Reply
I don´t think you could be beaming if you were happily living with your Highlander and you knew that one of your kidneys is dying eh?
Reply
Reply
Perhaps all anyone in your position can do is to put your energies into caring for Gabriel and Allen, into finding a new home and building up your business ideas; into concentrating on immediate and practical things.
At least you got a real "goodbye"...
Reply
I am getting tired of all this, he was the reason of the journal and of course, the board. I want to know new people,new ideas, a new atmosphere...
My energies are focused on them, smiling, this boy of mine will be a giant at the pace he eats! I need to buy new clothes this afternoon, nobody told me you shouldn´t wash their clothes in the machine. His mother will cut my balls into pieces.
Reply
Reply
Reply
Toujours,
Alinore
Reply
Reply
I wrote a long entry for you about my school. Read it if you are interested. I'm away for a while.
Reply
Reply
I know this is difficult to understand when you truly love someone it ..The greatest thing you can do is love them even they are not around. Not so long ago I lost someone I loved a lot .I have lived my whole life with him by my side .He died of cancer . I learned that he is still alive and I will keep loving him.Because he's there in my heart and he lives on becuase I have not stop remembering our precious times together and there is where I can still love him eventough he's not around. And who knows your love is still alive he might change his mind. But always remember the precious moments you shared. And try to imagine if he never existed in yourlife. Life is a bitch sometimes . But we have to make the best out of it Take it from someone who has to take tranquilizers to survive ...
and guess what I adopted a kitten today !!!
Be welll
Lumen
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment