I'm due for an update.
It's Christmas, but it isn't Christmas. Not like it used to be, not the same for me as times past were, and of course nothing like it was when my mum and gramma were alive.
I wasn't asked what I wanted for Christmas, but then -- I haven't been asked that in a year or more that I can remember. wenelda's mother got me a gift card to WalMart and a Christmas card...and one of those little plush Santas you find in the Christmas candy aisle (wenelda got a reindeer). I'm wearing my Santa hat that I got to wear to work yesterday, but I only got it because I haven't had the energy to wash it and do something grand to it -- plus it keeps my head warm.
Yay for everyone else having their Christmas cheer, happy spirits and falalalala, but they're just words for me. Of course I wish you all the best and the merriest, but don't expect me to have any in return.
I was invited away for New Year's and I'll be going. More like going away for a weekend and coming back to more people celebrating something that seems like any other day to me, but yes... There's a break in the monotony.
They say the holidays are depressing. Now to me...they're numbing.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware...
...I'm tired of being what you want me to be... ~Linkin Park's Numb
TO: Those of you stuck, I'm sorry. Those of you having fun, I'm glad. Those of you who got everything you wanted, I'm honestly thrilled for you.
Hopefully everyone has a good holiday. Can't think of anything else to add at the moment.
I wasn't asked what I wanted for Christmas, but then -- I haven't been asked that in a year or more that I can remember. wenelda's mother got me a gift card to WalMart and a Christmas card...and one of those little plush Santas you find in the Christmas candy aisle (wenelda got a reindeer). I'm wearing my Santa hat that I got to wear to work yesterday, but I only got it because I haven't had the energy to wash it and do something grand to it -- plus it keeps my head warm.
Yay for everyone else having their Christmas cheer, happy spirits and falalalala, but they're just words for me. Of course I wish you all the best and the merriest, but don't expect me to have any in return.
I was invited away for New Year's and I'll be going. More like going away for a weekend and coming back to more people celebrating something that seems like any other day to me, but yes... There's a break in the monotony.
They say the holidays are depressing. Now to me...they're numbing.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware...
...I'm tired of being what you want me to be... ~Linkin Park's Numb
TO: Those of you stuck, I'm sorry. Those of you having fun, I'm glad. Those of you who got everything you wanted, I'm honestly thrilled for you.
Hopefully everyone has a good holiday. Can't think of anything else to add at the moment.