Finally, a challenge.
Work, work work work work.
Most of my life, most of my jobs have been... "non-challenging". Don't get me wrong, some of them required serious physical applications (the laborers union, the steel mill, and to a much-much lesser extent, the pizza kitchen); and I've had jobs that required both technical and personal skills (Cust. Service rep - though that job was pretty damn depressing by the end, and of course, the computer shop).
The computer shop was mentally challenging, but computers have always been something that was relatively easy for me. Dealing with the customers was a bigger hassle.
This job though... this job is really a massive undertaking. Far more than I realized. I'm learning it quickly, both the owner and his wife have complimented me directly and I've overheard them discussing me and him on the phone, but because of my ease with past jobs, I feel I'm not learning fast enough, and it's greatly stressing me out.
When you start having dreams about work...
Anyhow, so I'm on my lunch break, and too stressed to eat right now, so I figured I'd do an update. I just need to remind myself that I'm jumping into a full blown operation, one that has been going on for over 15 years, I'm not going to learn it in a month or two.
Thankfully I've figured out some revisions to the inventory management system that the owner gave the 'ok' on that has/will greatly help me keep track of orders in processing, without chasing paperwork all around the office.
I hate work-related stress most of all. It consumes me almost completely, because work is stability, vitality, a necessity; so it's given top priority, because so much of everything else is riding on it. No job, no money, no money... well, no anything else. So it's something that I can't ignore. I can't put it off and say "I'll deal with it later". It needs to be resolved, and resolution for it basically means dedicating more - more time, more energy, more memory -- whatever it takes. Sadly, this solution also causes drastic drops in other places, as I pull "internal resources" to dedicate to work. I have a LIST of people that I need to call. I have one outstanding commitment that I need to fulfill, and two other minor ones. But like I said, the time, energy... the things I'd put into those tasks... have all be usurped by the new job. Welcome to the world of a workaholic/near-perfectionist.
Thankfully, I know when I'm more familiar and confident with the job, it will dissipate, and I'll be closer to what is considered normal for me. I just hope it's soon.
Most of my life, most of my jobs have been... "non-challenging". Don't get me wrong, some of them required serious physical applications (the laborers union, the steel mill, and to a much-much lesser extent, the pizza kitchen); and I've had jobs that required both technical and personal skills (Cust. Service rep - though that job was pretty damn depressing by the end, and of course, the computer shop).
The computer shop was mentally challenging, but computers have always been something that was relatively easy for me. Dealing with the customers was a bigger hassle.
This job though... this job is really a massive undertaking. Far more than I realized. I'm learning it quickly, both the owner and his wife have complimented me directly and I've overheard them discussing me and him on the phone, but because of my ease with past jobs, I feel I'm not learning fast enough, and it's greatly stressing me out.
When you start having dreams about work...
Anyhow, so I'm on my lunch break, and too stressed to eat right now, so I figured I'd do an update. I just need to remind myself that I'm jumping into a full blown operation, one that has been going on for over 15 years, I'm not going to learn it in a month or two.
Thankfully I've figured out some revisions to the inventory management system that the owner gave the 'ok' on that has/will greatly help me keep track of orders in processing, without chasing paperwork all around the office.
I hate work-related stress most of all. It consumes me almost completely, because work is stability, vitality, a necessity; so it's given top priority, because so much of everything else is riding on it. No job, no money, no money... well, no anything else. So it's something that I can't ignore. I can't put it off and say "I'll deal with it later". It needs to be resolved, and resolution for it basically means dedicating more - more time, more energy, more memory -- whatever it takes. Sadly, this solution also causes drastic drops in other places, as I pull "internal resources" to dedicate to work. I have a LIST of people that I need to call. I have one outstanding commitment that I need to fulfill, and two other minor ones. But like I said, the time, energy... the things I'd put into those tasks... have all be usurped by the new job. Welcome to the world of a workaholic/near-perfectionist.
Thankfully, I know when I'm more familiar and confident with the job, it will dissipate, and I'll be closer to what is considered normal for me. I just hope it's soon.