I enjoyed yesterday and today very much. I really did. I miss some people though, I wish they would call around more often- or at all.

Fuck. I feel disgusted.

My week has consisted of nightmares, not being able to sleep, a panic attack at four in the morning, let downs, intoxication, and attempting to forget the nightmares that have invaded my uneasy and very little sleep.

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I need to be drunk again. Fuck this.

This is fucking not working out. I hate the word "dicipline."

This is me yelling !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's time to return to old habits; something familiar is in order. I'm starting now. Hello, again.

I sat in another waiting room. I think I've spent more time in waiting rooms than I have anywhere else recently. Then I get taken to a room and I sit in there for another ridiculous long amount of time. I was prescribed more pills today. I started crying in the room and the Pediatrition looked at me funny. I mumbled something like, "Sorry, I'm a ( Read more... )

I've been contaminated. 
I know not who I am.

I'm drunk.