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[vinylmonster]

as rarely as i find myself in these same physical states in such a literal sense (sitting in my room back in maine in my underwear listening to the newer mirah cd) well, i can truthfully and honestly say that i don't like it-a notion born almost solely out of frustration. being here and doing this, as it was often done throughout highschool, brings

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[astra_castra]

okay you have dropped so many hints that im thinking today is maybe ... your ... half birthday. unbirthday? A very merry Unbirthday to you!!! <3

[lizzydub12]

happy birthday my little lovemuffin woooo! <3

[l_train257]

Hey Ben,
I sad I haven't seen you in like a year but happy late birthday!!!! Oh and starting dec 20th I will be living in K-bunk!!! On Ocean Ave.!!! The house is huge, you will have to stop by! all my love

[hip_hop]

trips home always do that very thing to me.

i was convinced i was socially defective - or just, defective in general. this seed of thought was planted carelessly by my parents, but i bought into it and, without realizing it, played to that general idea of being unloveable and defective.

each day i'm on my own, looking toward the new goals, new accomplishments and new projects, i see that i'm not so defective. in fact, i'm pretty fucking cool, and successful, and as it turns out, pretty cute too.

point is, your perspective is right. home is nice but it's also a nightmare rollercoaster ride to depression for me. remembering it's only a ride and that each ride is short helps me through. in time, you'll build a callous for this shit.

AND
happy bday, if you weren't 20 before.

[anhdrogyny]

dude, if i were in main over thanksgiving break (as opposed to your territory, new york city), i woulda given you some up-against-the-wall-smooches, and not to "throw you out of your comfort zone," but more-or-less to express my "HAVE A HAPPY POST-MODERN BLACK MAN BIRTHDAY" sentiments. happy birthday, benny bullets!