Redux Redux

[violachic]

It's been quite awhile since I was on here. I'm not sure if I even know how to use the posting tools anymore, especially since they seem to have changed quite a bit. It's a little strange to feel like an internet elder. Or hipster. Or whatever. "When I was posting on LJ we had no choice but to know how to use HTML!" Does anybody actually use HTML

Comments

[misslynn]

I am glad for your post, and so sorry for your pain and trauma.

This may be a really dumb question, but you don't mention therapy above - have you seen a therapist at all? I realize that may be hard to afford or hard to do for other reasons, or maybe you have and you just didn't mention it.

It's just - you mention trauma and I know there are skilled therapists who can help work through PTSD. I know there are no easy answers for physical or emotional pain. But it could help (my husband is a therapist and I know he's worked with a veteran with PTSD).

So there's my bias - but my good wishes for you remain. Gentle hugs.

[blistermoth]

Shut it down indeed!

[sabotabby]

You are awesome. Seriously. I'm so glad I know you.

It's taken me a long time not to just rage at how much time was stolen from me through health things. Not as bad as what you've been going through (three years as opposed to 10) but I get it-anger and grief over not being able to be the activist you once were, not being able to go back to baseline normal.

That you still keep fighting-even if sometimes it's just a fight to carve out space in your own life-is testament to your strength.

Dude.

[bibliofile]

In some ways, I am so happy to see an LJ post from you! (Over on DW, you last posted in 2009.) Have you really been in Seattle for less than two years? You seem so at home and even thriving* there, it feels a lot longer. Yay for having L & them to land in Seattle with at first.

As to what your wrote, I hear you! Oh geez do I hear you.

How to deal with all the loss? I wish I knew. Mostly I try not to dwell on it, but come to terms with it? Theoretically it's possible, but it's not like AAA gives out fucking Trip-Tychs for thosetrips

[smhwpf]

It is good to hear from you at greater length than on Facebook. But I am so sorry for your loss, and for everything you are going through.

You are awesome. I hope and pray that the coming decade brings you the blessing, healing and happiness that you deserve.