ok... forget about that crush. im not good enough. theres other peopel better then me. i suck. i know i know "no you dont suck i love you!" but what the fuck. tell the guys that. im just fuckin sick of feeling alone. i got good friends but no man... im sorry but i havent had a boyfriend in 2 years. i thought it may be my time but im not even close!

mushys got a cruuuush! and thanks to cassie her pickup line worked!!! hahahaha

being a good friend isnt one of my qualities. even if it wasnt my fault. i suck at life. end of story.

i just want to punch a whole in everything i come across. theres no words to express the anger i feel right now. i got all dressed up and actually put make-up on. what a day. why are people such assholes? i need my own car. if i had one id beout of here and probably not feel any of this. my hand hurts and my head hurts. i just want to leave fl and ( Read more... )

fucking a... i always somehow fuck things up. i suck.

i suck at life. im going to bed.

once again.. halloween blows. i actually had plans but being the only kid at my work, i got scheduled to close. and now i have to take a half semester of fucking team sports cos i got jipped out of that "free credit" from doing softball for 2 years. if i would have known that i wouldnt have done it last year. what a waste. today just sucks. certain ( Read more... )

the black dahlia show was fuckin awesome. oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy. got free posters for bein a pimp. hah and tara was offered a place for bein a merch girl for cephalic carnage. but she declined which was gay and stupid. tara your dumb hahaha. and supposedly according the chowdah(black dahlia merch dude), my uncle is dead haha. i was like wtf? ( Read more... )

i dont know why i feel like shit right now... i mean this weekend has been great. last night was amazing. laying with tyler talking about animal seamen <3, slowdancing with random friends, drinking all night till 5am, sleeping on the couch with dan cevs, finally seeing fuckin megan and crystal!!, then today playing fuckin kickball! awwwesome! i ( Read more... )

WHAT!? KICKBALL TONIGHT?! HEELLLLL MOTHER FUCKING YEAH! I CANT WAIT I AM ACTUALLY DRESSED AND READY TO FUCKIN ROCK N KICK! WANNA COME GIMME A CALL