so how is it over wherever you are? im in rome at the moment and its pretty chill. i met some cool people and i hope to backpack with friends another time. the right way, with a backpack and not lugage. i feel stupid bringing all i brought.
damn thats about it

so im going to the ancient baths today. should be fun. too bad im not 'allowed' to jump in them...

i hope things work out. i hope fate knows what its doing.

i feel so drained. i feel drunk even though i dont have alcohol and i want to be in baltimore with my friends. im a walking zombie. dead inside

i wonder how many times ive come on here and said that braydon had broken up with me... add one more to the list. well, i guess this time is real cause i dont know if i can do this any longer. i love him but im just in alot of emotional pain at the moment and its not only because of him. i havent eaten alot, thinkin its not such a good thing. i ( Read more... )

painted a picture of Kevin yesterday. it sucks but its still him. wow is it bad. but i hadnt realized the effect it would have had no me until we went on a fielt trip to some ruins.. i had a panic attack and ran into an abandoned house.. cried alot... i miss my friends at home alot. i miss that summer.. i miss him ( Read more... )

how sureal living here is. its like living in a dream sequence. the music. the people. the food (though i could use more chocolate) and th sea. i know now that i must be near water. i can thank my father for that. living in virginia on the beach must have had an effect on me otherwise i wouldnt love it so much. i love the sea. if anyone knows some ( Read more... )

damn its beautiful here. i miss my punks and im sure everyone is tired of hearing me talk about my crusties back home but i get tired of them talking about shoes so its even. i like it here and i wish i could bring Malissa pete and rez here just to walk the streets and be stupid americans instead of being stupid towsonians. im learning italian.. ( Read more... )

man i love Dave. Im so glad that he is my friend. i dont know what i would do if i couldnt go to his house, curl up in his lap and tell him all my troubles while his mom bakes me cookies. its funny cause somtimes i only go there to see his mom and Todd... he gets mad when i do but they are my friends too ( Read more... )

so im starting to pack for italy. im anxious and scared. im so afraid of loosing braydon. i wish things were different and somtimes i wish i would stop falling in love with long distance guys ( Read more... )