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Thank you everyone! I feel so much better after venting because I read all the responses and felt very special. Mike and I talked and we decided that we both still feel so much for eachother and that we don't want to just separate and never be a part of the other's life. We decided to stay friends for about a month and see what we should do after that. It's fun to be his friend because I feel like I can actually be more myself. I know that seems a bit weird but we've changed from the people we were in school and we were clinging on to that ideal and it seemed to just get worse and worse. I want us to become independent of eachother. I want us to be able to take care of ourselves and not have to be with the other person all the time. I feel he has a lot of problems and that I should be his friend and help him go through it, but not his girlfriend. I know we would probably get back together but even if we don't I will still be glad to be his friend and a part of his life still. Just because it didn't work out this round doesn't mean anything for the future. I do miss school though. I miss seeing him everyday and talking to him because it seemed that during school we didn't have to worry about anything. He lived with his parents, my parents liked him, he wasn't partying all the time with his friends, everything just seemed better. I still feel sad that things can't go back and that at some point there was a time when I wasn't the only girl he thought about, but I understand where he came from. She was a friend that he could really relate to. Like a best friend of the opposite sex that you would always consider dating but couldn't really bring yourself to do it. I don't hate her. I'm just sad about the entire thing. It will all pass and I know that things will get better. I feel much better after hearing everyone. Thank you all! At some point I will probably contact you all and annoy the hell out of you. ^_^
On a different note I am so worried about Sarah. She left for Missouri and although we could talk she texted me saying that she really need me and I didn't get until ten minutes later and I haven't been able to contact her since. I'm really worried that something happened to her. I was hoping that maybe she was able to get a hold of the internet to make a post or something. I hope nothing happened to her. I hope Julian didn't do anything to her but I can't help thinking that he might have. I'm so worried. I don't want her to be upset like I was. I don't want to be the one to put her back together like she had to do with me. After what I went through I could never see her like that. I'm probably just exaggerating, but I am really worried.
On a different note I am so worried about Sarah. She left for Missouri and although we could talk she texted me saying that she really need me and I didn't get until ten minutes later and I haven't been able to contact her since. I'm really worried that something happened to her. I was hoping that maybe she was able to get a hold of the internet to make a post or something. I hope nothing happened to her. I hope Julian didn't do anything to her but I can't help thinking that he might have. I'm so worried. I don't want her to be upset like I was. I don't want to be the one to put her back together like she had to do with me. After what I went through I could never see her like that. I'm probably just exaggerating, but I am really worried.