A fundamental particle

[violetcheetah]

Thursday, March 10, 2016

When the event occurs in my shrink's office, there are rarely words. Often there aren't even thoughts that I try and fail to put words to. There's just a -need-. Not a need for a certain thing - or not a thing I am aware of - just that I need something, something I don't have, perhaps something that doesn't exist in the

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[vettecat]

Does this mean that even when you're completely relaxed - at home, reading, with a cat purring on your lap - you never feel completely safe? If so I'm very deeply sorry to hear that.

[violetcheetah]

What I feel at times like that is not so much safety as respite. Sometimes there's a period of time when I forget that it's temporary, that I will have to move, or leave, or that something is eventually going to intrude -- people yelling outside, my own thoughts -- and if I've had a relatively mundane day or two, those periods can string together until I can maintain that forgetfulness for a couple of minutes at a time, several times in a half-hour.

[vettecat]

I'm glad you can find some peace.