hmm i decided, that no matter what happens in life, i will never have the one i want, i have fucked up more then you guys will ever know, and fucked myself over for beingable to be with the guy i know i was spost to be with. i think i am not going to *be* with anyone for a long time now, i meen if it happens it happens. and i will date around, but ( Read more... )

I'd rather have bad times with you,
than have good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together,
than easy times apart.
I'd rather just have you

Every day ( Read more... )

well i have written someone out of my life, well actualy two people out of my life, becasue with him, goes his mum :( i am sad to be losing her. but i am not going to send my kid somewhere that someone i dont respect lives and would be interacting with her..

i hate the way i feel, i fuckign hate it, i want to cut it all away, but i cant, fuck make it stop please, i cant stand it, i cant fucking handle it,

we drive tonight ( Read more... )

well th surgery is done, and i feel like ASS i am in so much pain, but what else should i expect, i lost alot of blood during the surgery, more then they had exected me to,but other then that it all went good, i came home lastnight, it was good, now i a, just chillin at home, ok thats enough bye

life is shit, my mind is shit, everything is shit, i am scared, confused, tired, depressed, in love, hateing myself, i just want to sleep, and or sit in the bathtub, cry and scream, throw shit and get ALOT of pain. i hate how men can make you feel like this, just by calling, and telling you they will be there for you when you go threw the most ( Read more... )

Go away from my window ( Read more... )

i have come to a conclusion... and i will stick with it, i want who i want, if my friends are my friends they will be cool with it, or suck it right the fuck up. cus if they dont, i will not fuck up the things i want again because people dont agree with it, i will just not deal with thoes people anymore ( Read more... )