So, for those of you who are paying attention, it has been about a month since my last update. There is so much to talk about. Once again, I have been ill, and not just physically ill. I mean, I did get very sick right after my birthday, but I really don’t feel the need to talk about that. I am so tired of being this sad and depressed being that I ( Read more... )

There are 8 days until my birthday!!

I will finish moving tonight!!!

Moving sucks!

My car is officially fixed!!!

When you work two jobs, you don't sleep much.

And, i think the first official hang out at our house will be tonight. how exciting.

Well, i am off to the store! byebye

I am so excited! And it is not only because i will get a hug tomorrow(which i am realizing, happens too infrequently) but because it will be a hug from which i will not want to let go. and it is something that i have waited 10 months for ( Read more... )

This is a long-needed update. I am sorry but I rambled on for a long time. I was feeling depressed and when that happens I feel the need to reflect on things and look for a way to move forward. Usually it helps. This time it didn’t, but if you are bored, this can be something interesting to read for a little while ( Read more... )

is it possible to think that two completemy opposite things are true? is there a reason for me to feel like that? I don't get it. it's almost like my subconscious is causing problems because there isn't enough wrong. why would it do that. i was fine. why can't i stop thinking about things then. why can't i just give up and that be all? why why why ( Read more... )

The past few nights I have remembered my dreams, and they are all related. I want to find the meaning in them, I think, but in doing that I am driving myself insane ( Read more... )

I had an odd dream last night. it was similar to the dream that i had the night before. the night before last, i was scared and last night i was sad. in both dreams i was comforted and i woke up feeling loved. i like that feeling. i mean, this shows that there are certain people in my life who really love me and will not leave me(i think anyways) ( Read more... )

So, I am not dead. I had a weird weekend, to put it mildly. I didn't sleep much. So, friday we went to Urgent care, and they informed me that I have chest pain. He told me to take motrin, which should be stronger than the ibprophen that i have been taking. they also told me not to go to work that night. so, i stayed home and watched the rocky ( Read more... )

I am really sick. Walking to school today i could hardly breathe, and so i called my mom. she called my doctor to see if i could get in there this afternoon, but they are completely booked. But they recommended that i go to urgent care, so that i can make it until my appointment, which is the wednesday after next. so mom is taking me to urgent care ( Read more... )

IT HURTS!!!!! I want it to stop!