Realization
Relationships between people are easily strained, and given the "proper" force they can snap rather quickly.
I've never been all that social, and maybe that's part of the reason this entire thing happened. I don't know. Suffice it to say, it was only very recently (a little over a year ago) that I started talking to people outside my close-knit circle of people I've known since kindergarten.
It's easy to meet people through email. But one of the problems with it, I've come to realize, is that it's very easy to misunderstand people, as well. Ever since I started using email to get to know people, I've sometimes misinterpreted what the other person is trying to tell me.
This happened a little while back, and I think I've ruined something. I'd only been talking to this person for a little while, but it seemed as though things were going well. We got along, talked about mutual interests, that whole deal, and I thought maybe I could add another person to my list of friends.
Then I read something this person told me in the entirely wrong light, and sent a response that was far harsher than I'd intended. I realized a bit later that I'd probably made an error in judgment and probably should have read a bit closer, but by then the damage had been done.
It's been two weeks now since I've heard from that person, and I think I won't be hearing from them again. It's made me realize that relationships, no matter what the kind, are hard to maintain, and that I've been taking my true friends for granted.
I've been wrapped in my own world for the past few weeks, and I now realize just how selfish and unfair that was of me. I think I've been making this same mistake for quite some time, and I hope now I'll be able to fix it.
So to foofbug, Blade, and especially Caorann, I'm sorry for keeping you out of my life for this time. It's not fair of me. You've been patient with me, you've been understanding, and most of all, you've stuck with me even when I'm stupid.
And I realize now how rare that actually is.
You're my best friends; I consider you all part of my family; and it's high time I treat you as such. You each have changed my life for the better, and I love you for it. Maybe that seems like a strong word, maybe sappy and dumb, but it's the truest thing I've ever felt.
I love you guys.
And I'm sorry for not taking the time to show you that.
I've never been all that social, and maybe that's part of the reason this entire thing happened. I don't know. Suffice it to say, it was only very recently (a little over a year ago) that I started talking to people outside my close-knit circle of people I've known since kindergarten.
It's easy to meet people through email. But one of the problems with it, I've come to realize, is that it's very easy to misunderstand people, as well. Ever since I started using email to get to know people, I've sometimes misinterpreted what the other person is trying to tell me.
This happened a little while back, and I think I've ruined something. I'd only been talking to this person for a little while, but it seemed as though things were going well. We got along, talked about mutual interests, that whole deal, and I thought maybe I could add another person to my list of friends.
Then I read something this person told me in the entirely wrong light, and sent a response that was far harsher than I'd intended. I realized a bit later that I'd probably made an error in judgment and probably should have read a bit closer, but by then the damage had been done.
It's been two weeks now since I've heard from that person, and I think I won't be hearing from them again. It's made me realize that relationships, no matter what the kind, are hard to maintain, and that I've been taking my true friends for granted.
I've been wrapped in my own world for the past few weeks, and I now realize just how selfish and unfair that was of me. I think I've been making this same mistake for quite some time, and I hope now I'll be able to fix it.
So to foofbug, Blade, and especially Caorann, I'm sorry for keeping you out of my life for this time. It's not fair of me. You've been patient with me, you've been understanding, and most of all, you've stuck with me even when I'm stupid.
And I realize now how rare that actually is.
You're my best friends; I consider you all part of my family; and it's high time I treat you as such. You each have changed my life for the better, and I love you for it. Maybe that seems like a strong word, maybe sappy and dumb, but it's the truest thing I've ever felt.
I love you guys.
And I'm sorry for not taking the time to show you that.