i have a mildly unhealthy obsession with taylor swift. hahaha. oh man ( Read more... )

yesterday was certainly interesting to say the least. hugo has had several problems, including technological hiccups and seizures, freezing on occasion among other things. he has also died small deaths, just very recently his screen faded to white as though he was going to the light while i was panicking. i have made several stops into the genius ( Read more... )

1. who was your FIRST prom date ( Read more... )

five hundred, twenty-five thousand, six hundred minutes ( Read more... )

last night i had a bit of a breakdown, which i do not foreseeing disappearing in the near future, even as i am sidetracked by other things. it is always right there brimming just beneath the patina of my day-to-day goings on, threatening to surface and derail me for an evening. i don't know why i cannot talk about it. i just can't. i do not think i ( Read more... )

1. i have this thing where i always feel bad. i suppose it's a guilt complex, which i am sure people would argue is cultivated by catholicism but i do not think so. it is more that i feel responsible for things, which are more often than not out of my control and i realized the extent of this when i was giving him an instance. say we decide to go ( Read more... )

i have to make time for school and its work. yesterday was nice seeing as we did nothing, although i attribute that to our exhaustion, falling asleep head to feet to fit on my deceptively weeny leather sofa halfway through march of the penguins. afterwards i went a'running, and the weather was thankfully mild so it felt amazing, although ( Read more... )

i was so relieved, and still am but i am realizing that i am not all the way okay. i still need time, not necessarily apart but i still need time to figure it out. it all happened so quickly, over a succession of three days and i processed as best i could but there are still things lingering, feelings hurt and painful things i cannot help but

originally i wanted some huge three-day event spanning even a week if i could make it, but of course i can't. i don't have the life in me to have that much fun and it probably would not live up to the expectations that come to think of it, it would not have anyways because let's be honest, when people think fun my name is not the first to crop up. ( Read more... )

first off, my back and behind are rather sore. god knows why but sitting on the bus today on my way to school my lower back was killing me and i kept shifting my weight in my seat during lecture and lucky me, walking in two minutes late because of the snow storm meant i've been assigned a seat right beside my professor who emanates scary brain ( Read more... )