Torn between wanting to seek out and ruminate with every last person I have any spiritual affinity with, and throwing myself into a deep, meditative recluse.

How much is conversation worth if you have nothing new to offer, and already know what's you're going to hear?

Sometimes even "Mr. Talking" got nothing to say.

Time and time again I find myself staring into space, overwhelmed with so many choices and options that I end up doing absolutely nothing at all. It feels weak, pathetic, miserable. I find myself wondering what’s the point of doing anything at all. It’s such a silly mood to be in, and I like to think that I’ve developed a framework for dealing with ( Read more... )

It's amazing, frustrating and humbling how easily I fall back into the same old routines and problems when I haven't been paying much attention, when I let things slide thinking that they'll sort themselves out. I'm always trying to say everything at once, and being unable to do so, I choose the alternative- which is saying nothing at all. I can't ( Read more... )

scrolling through my friendslist, posting comments, a cheer-up here, a hang-in-there there, a =) here, and cheers there.

i mean all of it. i love you all. you are not alone.

The young pastor’s daughter reaches out to the wounded rogue, who cringes and shifts aside. “Stay away from me,” he snarls- averting his eyes, as if his very presence might defile her. “You will be marred, tainted- have nothing to do with me, leave ( Read more... )

I dreamt it was my birthday- I think my twenty first. There was an older figure that suggested that I drive this big badass luxury jeep type vehicle. I hesitated. I asked my girlfriend about it. She feigned indifference but subtly hinted that she didn't want me to do it. I chose not to do it. I don't remember much else. I think I remember feeling ( Read more... )

Well, personally, I would just be straightforward with it. Like how Visa has been to me, and vice versa. It's a good wake up call when you're literal and in your face ( Read more... )

/bow

but I know it does.

Because I admired you then, and though I realise that I was obsessed with what you stood for to me, and that I glossed over your flaws and imperfections, I've always thought that we would've been AWESOME friends.

We will be friends, I know it. That is all I'd like, nothing more.

To friendship.

we live for the moments ( Read more... )