.... RIP Grampa.

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i don't know what you call this?

irony? weird? coincidence? fitting? insanely weird.

but litterally after i hit post of my last entry. i got a msg from my cousin....

my grandfather passed away this morning.



i wasn't overly close with him, it's hard to be when you've spent an accumulated month or so with him after age 4... but ... yeah. i think it makes that even worse on some cases... well maybe not.

still hits.

not as hard as my grama, as she was basically a mother to me. no. she was a mother to me.

i have no idea what's going to happen now.
i haven't even heard from my parents about htis. i'm hopping this is just a very very very poor taste april fools joke (even though it's a day late)
but i'm assuming both parents are going to both go to HK... which means ... i don't eevn know what's going to happen with my trip. or what's going on at all. or if i can go.
i want to.

but ... i can't go. i have exams and stuff.

i don't...

i think i'm also too tired to freak otu as last time.

or i've already been in such a weird state tonight writing that up i'm all drained as is.... i think it'll hit me more tomorrow.