You're WAY too into me, and I find it annoying
So, I'm seeing this guy. If two dates counts as seeing. And I'm being...I don't know. I think I'm not interested, and that I'm just dating him because I'm bored.
I started justifying it by telling myself that I'm giving him a chance. That I don't need to feel the vibe about a person before I get close to them.
I'm so not listening to my own instincts, and my instincts are good when I follow them.
But maybe I haven't really looked at the guy. Maybe, because I was already second guessing myself before I ever met him, I'm too...knotted up/nervous to hear my gut.
And now I've worked myself back into giving the guy a chance.
Grr. This is so frustrating. Nothing about him interests me. We don't share hobbies. Neither of us does anything really. He watches movies and works alot. I read fanfiction, procrastinate about working, and actually work. Good lord, we're quite possibly the two most boring people on the planet. I'm quiet. And goofy. He's quieter than me! He's too quiet. (Hello, Kettle. Nice to meet you. My name's Pot.) I mean, we'll easily sit there for five minutes him staring at me, me looking at anything but him, in dead silence until I come up with something to say. Truth be told, if I'm really stubborn about not saying anything, then he will open his mouth and volunteer something. I'm cool with silence, so it's not an uncomfortable situation....However...It's just. I don't want to hang out with somebody who doesn't do anything. Not without that whole vibe thing going on anyway. Actually, he does do something. He drives around. Shit, he doesn't even talk about the multitude of movies he's said he watches, other than to say 'I've netflixed over 800 movies' or 'I've watched such and such this week'. Not a 'This movie was really kick ass, or that sucked because yadda yadda yadda'.
To top it all off, I'm having this 'I'm annoyed you like me' reaction, and it's so going to warp into the 'I'm only tolerating you because to do anything else would make me the asshole' if he doesn't develop some kind of redeeming quality.
Fuck, this is weird. And I don't know if I'm reading this right or if it's just the IAYLM, but he sent me a text yesterday asking me out later this week, to which I had not replied. Than he stops into my work tonight without warning. And I get the feeling he's coming in to get an answer from me. I'm a stubborn shit, and I didn't give him one, but I pussyfooted around it by saying that I had to check my schedule. Yeah. I'm lame.
Maybe this wouldn't be such a big deal if I dated more...Or if I weren't still hung up on somebody whom I haven't seen in better than two years.
I started justifying it by telling myself that I'm giving him a chance. That I don't need to feel the vibe about a person before I get close to them.
I'm so not listening to my own instincts, and my instincts are good when I follow them.
But maybe I haven't really looked at the guy. Maybe, because I was already second guessing myself before I ever met him, I'm too...knotted up/nervous to hear my gut.
And now I've worked myself back into giving the guy a chance.
Grr. This is so frustrating. Nothing about him interests me. We don't share hobbies. Neither of us does anything really. He watches movies and works alot. I read fanfiction, procrastinate about working, and actually work. Good lord, we're quite possibly the two most boring people on the planet. I'm quiet. And goofy. He's quieter than me! He's too quiet. (Hello, Kettle. Nice to meet you. My name's Pot.) I mean, we'll easily sit there for five minutes him staring at me, me looking at anything but him, in dead silence until I come up with something to say. Truth be told, if I'm really stubborn about not saying anything, then he will open his mouth and volunteer something. I'm cool with silence, so it's not an uncomfortable situation....However...It's just. I don't want to hang out with somebody who doesn't do anything. Not without that whole vibe thing going on anyway. Actually, he does do something. He drives around. Shit, he doesn't even talk about the multitude of movies he's said he watches, other than to say 'I've netflixed over 800 movies' or 'I've watched such and such this week'. Not a 'This movie was really kick ass, or that sucked because yadda yadda yadda'.
To top it all off, I'm having this 'I'm annoyed you like me' reaction, and it's so going to warp into the 'I'm only tolerating you because to do anything else would make me the asshole' if he doesn't develop some kind of redeeming quality.
Fuck, this is weird. And I don't know if I'm reading this right or if it's just the IAYLM, but he sent me a text yesterday asking me out later this week, to which I had not replied. Than he stops into my work tonight without warning. And I get the feeling he's coming in to get an answer from me. I'm a stubborn shit, and I didn't give him one, but I pussyfooted around it by saying that I had to check my schedule. Yeah. I'm lame.
Maybe this wouldn't be such a big deal if I dated more...Or if I weren't still hung up on somebody whom I haven't seen in better than two years.