I have had many of those same issues. especially with the lack of physically close-close friends. I'm not sure what to do about that except try to nurture the friendships you have and if there are some that seem lacking, you can always talk about it with them. And if you're still there in the fall and I do end up moving there, I'm down =)
I love painting and drawing and making music, and I used to be really bad at all of them (and now have the occasional strokes of brilliance in each, i think!) For me all those improve sooooo much by just imitating what you like. and then branching out of course but.. it's a good crutch to start from.
whoo, i made it to the end! over the hills of darkness and down the valley of DOOM and here i am, risen from the ashes of the post like a phoenix!!!!
i love you. you are hot. and if i wanst so heterosexually in love with jimmy...we would be fucking right now :)
things will get better just wait and see...and in the wise words of a sexual boy.
you have so many relationships in this life only one or two will last you go through all the pain and strife then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
so hold onto the ones who really care in the end they'll be the only ones there when you get old and start losing your hair can you tell me who will still care?
mmmbop, baduba dop ba du bop, duba dop bop du wop baduba dop ba du, whoa yeah.
wow. that was awful. cant wait to be with you again <3 you let me know when you want to come camp out for a little vaca.
BTW, and you can ask Tyler, I told him myself that I'd do you. ^_^;;
(AND I think I told him that the very day I met the two of you as well now that I think of it haha)
I dont know if that would make you feel better or worse coming from a punkass like me, but there ya go.
But beyond that sort of carnality, I do really think you are genuinely beautiful all around. I wish we could have gotten to hang out more, and as it is, I didnt even get to see my man Tyler as much as I should have. We never got to play Lord of the Rings Monopoly. -_-;;
And fuck money. Worrying about money is like worrying so much about mortality, but just know that no matter what youll get by, even if you are penniless.
ReReading the part about you needing to puke or do art really screams catharsis is needed like I said, find an outlet and Im sure you'll perspective will begin to change, and thus external reality will have to follow your lead.
Amanda, everyone has those days when it's difficult to fathom why anyone would even bother talking to them. And when those days come, it's hard to listen to people telling you to be optimistic and wait for things to get better. But believe me, you are one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met, and you will succeed in whatever you choose to do. It may take a while to get yourself established in Bloomington and to figure out who your "real friends" are, but that's only normal for someone who moved so far away from home. Just remember that I love you (I hope I'm one of those "only best friends" ;)) and that I want to hear anything you have to say, any time. I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy, and I hope you feel better soon, but whether you do or not, I'm always willing to listen, whenever you can talk. (I know it's hard to find a time when we can both talk on the phone in relative privacy.) I miss you and I can't wait 'til I can get out there to see you. Any idea when/if you're coming home again?
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I love painting and drawing and making music, and I used to be really bad at all of them (and now have the occasional strokes of brilliance in each, i think!) For me all those improve sooooo much by just imitating what you like. and then branching out of course but.. it's a good crutch to start from.
And I think you're pretty. Cheer up buttercup!
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i love you. you are hot. and if i wanst so heterosexually in love with jimmy...we would be fucking right now :)
things will get better just wait and see...and in the wise words of a sexual boy.
you have so many relationships in this life
only one or two will last
you go through all the pain and strife
then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
so hold onto the ones who really care
in the end they'll be the only ones there
when you get old and start losing your hair
can you tell me who will still care?
mmmbop, baduba dop ba du bop, duba dop bop du wop baduba dop ba du, whoa yeah.
wow. that was awful. cant wait to be with you again <3 you let me know when you want to come camp out for a little vaca.
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(AND I think I told him that the very day I met the two of you as well now that I think of it haha)
I dont know if that would make you feel better or worse coming from a punkass like me, but there ya go.
But beyond that sort of carnality, I do really think you are genuinely beautiful all around. I wish we could have gotten to hang out more, and as it is, I didnt even get to see my man Tyler as much as I should have. We never got to play Lord of the Rings Monopoly. -_-;;
And fuck money. Worrying about money is like worrying so much about mortality, but just know that no matter what youll get by, even if you are penniless.
ReReading the part about you needing to puke or do art really screams catharsis is needed like I said, find an outlet and Im sure you'll perspective will begin to change, and thus external reality will have to follow your lead.
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I just thought it was funny that you said
that you told me you would do amanda.
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