“Why did I allow myself to be bored ever in the past and to compensate for it got high or drunk or rages or all the tricks people have because they want anything but serene understanding of just what there is, which is after all so much.”

I've spent so much of the past two years of my life providing myself with such a false sense of reality to the point where I've almost forgotten who I really am. I did my best to maintain aspects of myself that I liked, but over time most of those qualities have faded. I've lost friends, respect, ambition, self-worth, & the overall ability to care ( Read more... )

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