I've been thinking about this constantly.

[viva_la_reina]

I've spent so much of the past two years of my life providing myself with such a false sense of reality to the point where I've almost forgotten who I really am. I did my best to maintain aspects of myself that I liked, but over time most of those qualities have faded. I've lost friends, respect, ambition, self-worth, & the overall ability to care

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[ext_388427]

I just want you to know that I've been going through something similar for a while. Going through the motions of life... grow up, graduate highschool, go to college, graduate college, get a full time job. I think we are at a really strange time in our lives, somewhere between letting go of how we've grown up and facing reality. It's the first time in our lives where all the choices are on our shoulders and it's up to us to determine how it will all turn out. In my mind, this reality has been pretty unfair though because everything leading up to this moment was kind of out of my hands. I still have to deal with that sentiment though.

TL;DR I think you're really brave for posting that and I want to let you in on my resolution for this year: no more drinking myself into "nights we'll never remember...".

[viva_la_reina]

thank you for responding to this deanna. i know that we barely know each other, but it's good to hear that we're both dealing with similar issues due to this stage in our lives. i mean to say that it's nice to know i'm not entirely alone in this, and that means that neither are you... i wish you the best of luck in your resolution. i know we can both do it :)

ps: skins secret show friday, i hope to see you there!!!

[ext_388427]

yeah i want to go to that but my friends aren't done for busing to ny from philly especially since there aren't any good raves going on outside of that party and we saw rusko in august. i'm sad i'm gonna miss out on sleigh bells though :(