wow. so reading my latest entry must have a been a bit hard considering your feelings for your own father. I don't know what he did to you, but is there anyway this can be talked out? or is it beyond dead?
my heart truly goes out to you. i'm so so sorry you have to live your life hating your own blood.
I hope to god there is someway for this to be mended <3
you are a good person viv, good things will surface for you!
Actually your post made me very upset... not with what u said but to know that my father is such an ass.... I really hate him and I dont know what its like to have any love for him.... I grew up with him in the same house... but we always had issues... I always felt he hated me and did the impossible to see me cry... I tried to make it work and maybe we could over come the past... but after yesterday I could never see past all his shit
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My brother is 12... the reason he was crying was because he felt my mom was unfair over something really small... I guess my mom took my sister (14) to starbucks and when he was picked up from school they didnt bring him a drink... so he thought that was unfair.... and I was talking to him so he could understand it was not done on purpose.... I wanted him to understand life is not always fair.. he was just crying as we talked about it... and my dad came out of no where and started to hit him with the belt... just cause he was crying...
And to think I'm in between you and Ness. My dad can go for the asshole award every 6 months, but that's only because that's how often I actually spend time with him. But there are times that he melts my heart beyond all compare and it's surprising because this is the man who has been abusive - verbally and physically (although this part stopped) - since I was a little girl. So I can completely understand that love and anger that both of you feel. I feared my father every day of my young life and as an adult have only in the past few years overcome that. I can't say I am happy with my father, I can't say I like him all of the time, I can't say anything like that... but I can say that I know I am who I am partly because of him and that gives me strength.
I hope you can find your strength in the situation, too, Vivi.
wow, I'm sorry to see that. I hope somehow you two can mend things, or come to some sort of resolution. :( I know how hard it is to really dislike someone that you are a part of. :(
If you need to talk or anything, gimme a call anytime, ok?
Vivi... im sorry to hear this and your reason why.i know that hurts you a lot. ur right still go to see ur mother.how does ur mother feel about this? i hope that u will be ok.always protect ur little brother. take cae of urself vivi... (((((hugs))))))) <3
thanks =0) my mother is stuck in the middle.. she knows how I feel... but at the same time thats her husband... and she has to respect him... my parents are old fashioned...
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so reading my latest entry must have a been a bit hard considering your feelings for your own father. I don't know what he did to you, but is there anyway this can be talked out? or is it beyond dead?
my heart truly goes out to you.
i'm so so sorry you have to live your life hating your own blood.
I hope to god there is someway for this to be mended <3
you are a good person viv, good things will surface for you!
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the reason he was crying was because he felt my mom was unfair over something really small... I guess my mom took my sister (14) to starbucks and when he was picked up from school they didnt bring him a drink... so he thought that was unfair.... and I was talking to him so he could understand it was not done on purpose.... I wanted him to understand life is not always fair.. he was just crying as we talked about it... and my dad came out of no where and started to hit him with the belt... just cause he was crying...
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My dad can go for the asshole award every 6 months, but that's only because that's how often I actually spend time with him.
But there are times that he melts my heart beyond all compare and it's surprising because this is the man who has been abusive - verbally and physically (although this part stopped) - since I was a little girl.
So I can completely understand that love and anger that both of you feel.
I feared my father every day of my young life and as an adult have only in the past few years overcome that.
I can't say I am happy with my father, I can't say I like him all of the time, I can't say anything like that... but I can say that I know I am who I am partly because of him and that gives me strength.
I hope you can find your strength in the situation, too, Vivi.
*hugs*
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I hope somehow you two can mend things, or come to some sort of resolution. :(
I know how hard it is to really dislike someone that you are a part of. :(
If you need to talk or anything, gimme a call anytime, ok?
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